I was
on the phone with my daughter in West Virginia a few days ago, and she “came
out” with an unexpected, but encouraging statement.
Well,
let me offer you a little background color before I tell you what my little
Mary said to me.
You
see, while my daughter is just three years away from the half century mark, she
is both mentally ill and borderline retarded, and, as a result, experiences significant
impairment in her thinking and functioning. And, as a result, Mary has lived in
an assisted living environment over the past twenty-five plus years.
I have
often characterized Mary’s ongoing demeanor during this period of time as
neither extremely morose, nor extraordinarily ecstatic, and that, “I think she
has done the best she could under the circumstances.” It has been difficult for
me to realize that my daughter will never marry, will never work a job, will
never own a home, will never realize her full potential, and will never function
as an adult is meant to function in our society.
Be that
as it may, when I was on the phone with Mary the other evening she began
talking about a recent experience, the context of which she had only rarely
discussed, when she said,
(and)
“I didn’t see Him, but I knew He was there.”
And I
spontaneously responded with,
“You
know it is so much like that, Mary when we are sitting in a room, and someone
quietly walks in behind us. We sense their presence with us, but we have not
yet seen them.”
Pt. 2
And it
seemed to me that my illusion “rang a bell” for Mary. At least, it helped her
connect with the understanding that, even in her darkest days, God has not been
preoccupied, nor taken a vacation, nor been on a bathroom break.
I ran
across a wonderful You Tube segment a couple years ago which features an actor
who looks surprisingly like the classical Jesus, and who, throughout the video,
can be seen riding on the back of a garbage truck, encouraging a skateboarder
to get up, and try again, and standing next to a depressed young woman on the
roof of a building.
And I
think this little video spoke to me about the daily presence of Jesus in our
lives like nothing else ever did. And during the course of my busy life, I have
so often viewed this video, and have been encouraged by that two minute bit of
e-space, as I never was before.
“Dad, I
was in my room the other day, and I felt God’s presence with me.”
(and)
“I didn’t
see Him, but I knew He was there.”
It has
helped me to comprehend that while Mary’s life is different than my own life,
and that she will never move and live and breathe on this earth in the exact
same manner which I do,… that God values her life and existence as much as He
ever did my own.
Speaking
of words my daughter has conveyed to me over the years, I will always remember
one particular phrase.
“Dad,
you know we all have a life to live.”
And I
think no truer words have ever been spoken.
And
whether we ride on the back of a garbage truck on a daily basis, flit from ramp
to handrail to park bench on the back of a skateboard, stand atop a ten story
building looking down at a one way leap into the abyss, or live out our lives
in an assisted living facility, we can be sure that a loving, caring God, has
counted the number of hairs on our heads, writes our names on the palm of His
hand, has a space in His heart that only you or I can fill, and, who, though
altogether unseen, will not leave us comfortless, and assures us of His presence in the brightest day and in the darkest night.
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PLEASE, PLEASE help me find this video of "Jesus on the Garbage Truck."
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