Sunday, September 29, 2019

CHRISTMAS EYES


                  (Idella Anderson)

            
            The cynic sees in Christmas just the glitter and display,

            The miser sees the foolishness of giving things away.

            The teacher sees the burden of a program, tree or play.

            While the merchant sees his balance at the close of each hard 
            day.



            The glutton sees the table spread with everything complete

            To satisfy the appetite—rich pastries, savory meat.

            The child sees only toy land, oranges, nuts, and candies sweet,

            And a jolly rotund Santa Claus a-jingling down the street.



            The seamstress sees the garments to be finished without fail,

            The “Martha” sees the cooking, cleaning—all that guests entail.

            The needy sees his poverty, hears his hungry child’s sad wail.

            The worldling sees gay parties lasting till the stars grow pale.



            But the Christian sees the manger, sees the Holy Child within,

            With the shepherds and the wise men hears the angels’ 
            wonder hymn

            Sees how dark would be the picture if all this had never been,

            Then in humble adoration bows the knee and worships Him.

            (With thanks to https://humston.blogspot.com)

Thursday, September 26, 2019

VOICES FROM THE PAST

I wrote an earlier story about having once visited my great Uncle Gordon. I had just turned 13, and my family and I were vacationing at my grandparent’s house in southern Georgia. 




As my mother, brother and I sat in my uncle’s parlor, he stood up, walked over to an unusual wooden box, lifted the lid, and proceeded to turn a crank on the side; (which reminded me of the old timey handle on the front of those Henry Ford Model T’s).

Suddenly, a black cylinder mounted on the inside top of the box began spinning, and the strangest music I’d ever heard filled up the room. I’d seen those old black and white films of Al Jolsen singing, and what I was hearing reminded me of his style of music and vocal characteristics. 

For all I knew my exposure to my great uncle’s Victrola (Amberola) was a one-time experience; at least in terms of ever seeing and hearing his personal music box again. He was in his late 60’s or early 70’s, and I never expected to see him again. (And as it fell together, I never did).

However…

(One can always tell something unexpected is about to be revealed when this word appears on the written page).
However, a full half century later this former adolescent is easily as old as my dearly departed relative was at the time, and (strangely enough) I was recently afforded the opportunity to not only see and hear my uncle’s ancient Victrola again, 

…but to purchase it, and provide it a place of honor in my very own home.

Did I mention my great Uncle’s entire collection of audio cylinders came with that old music box? (Well, they did). It seems these cylinders have a Plaster of Paris base, with the standard black plastic record coating on the outside. And of perhaps a hundred audios, the inner core of perhaps 2/3 of them are beginning to crumble; (which leaves me wondering if there is any hope of repair).
 
But as for the thirty or so cylinders which are still usable, once again I have been given the opportunity to listen to the strains of that ethereal old music coming out of the internal horn; tucked just behind a framework of metal and what I refer to as ‘speaker cloth.’

My uncle evidently enjoyed religious music, as thus far I have discovered more than a ‘handful’ contain this particular genre of hymns and spiritual melodies. 

Yesterday, having pushed the audio cylinder onto the roller, I turned the crank 8 or 10 times, and flipped the switch. Suddenly, the familiar old hymn, “Rock of Ages” wafted through the speaker. At first, several male and female voices blended; ultimately metamorphosing into one female voice finishing the verse.

Strange, the Edison Amberola 30 player was patented in 1903, and according to a notecard which my uncle wrote out by hand, my particular version of the machine was originally purchased in 1917. 

The owners of the surreally poignant voices have easily been dead and gone for three quarters of a century. No more will they walk their native soil, but rather have become part of it.

…However,

(there’s that word again)

they have left something of themselves behind.

And, would you believe it? In spite of the tiny cracks and pops which are part and parcel of such an ancient recording, and in spite of the decidedly English tilt of their repertoire, the tenor of their voices struck something deep inside of me. 

Deep calling out to deep. A rather apt way of putting it, I think. They were here and I was not. I am here and they are not. And yet, they have lent me their voices, and have instilled something grand and lasting within me. 

They have simply left something of themselves behind.
And for this I am grateful, (and intend to do as they have done before me).


Post-script - Since I purchased the ancient record player and the audio cylinders I discovered there was a tool to 'ream out' the inside of the cylinders; which I subsequently purchased. As a result virtually 100 percent of the audios can be played, and provide excellent sound. 


Also, since I purchased the Amberola both my aunts informed me that it was originally owned by my grandfather Ring, my great uncle Gordon's brother. Of course, it was an added bonus for me to discover this information.


By William McDonald, PhD. Excerpt from "(Mc)Donald's Daily Diary" Vol. 35. Copyright pending 

THE WORD FOR TODAY

For the Word of God is engaged and alive, and it is capable of dividing bone from sinew; much like a two-edged sword. It can effectively separate soul and spirit, and it comprehends the deepest thoughts of the heart. Nothing in the heavens or the earth is hidden from the sight of God. Everything is laid bare before His eyes; to Whom we will give an account of our thoughts, words, and actions.
Since we have such an amazing High Priest Who ascended into heaven, Christ Jesus, the Son of God, let us cherish this beloved Faith which He has bequeathed to us.
For we do not have a High Priest Who is incapable of empathizing with our weaknesses, but He was tempted in each and every way that we have been tempted, but without giving sway to that temptation and resulting sin.
Let us approach the throne of Grace without the slightest hesitation, so we may receive mercy, and grace to help when there is nowhere else for us to turn.
(Excerpt from the New Testament, Book of Hebrews, Chapter 4, McDonald Paraphrase)

Sunday, September 22, 2019

LORD, REMEMBER ME


“One of the thieves, who was hanging next to the Christ, heaped verbal abuse on Him.


‘Aren't You pretending to be the Anointed One? Everyone is waiting for You to save yourself. And while you’re at it, how about saving us?’


“The other criminal, however, challenged his fellow transgressor with the words, 


‘Have you no fear of God, even while you are enduring the same penalty as this righteous man? You know we deserve it, but this man is not only innocent of the crime for which He is accused, but He has never done anything wrong at all!’

"Now the thief who spoke these words looked at Jesus, and made a request,


‘Savior, please don’t forget me when you are seated on your throne in heaven.’


“And Jesus answered him.


‘I will tell you the absolute truth. This very day I will make a place for you in paradise.’” (Excerpt, Luke 23. McDonald Paraphrase)


I have been thinking a lot about this scripture passage lately, and the very personal way in which it applies to you and me.


As long as I remember, my father was an agnostic. Oh, he was a good man. A very good man. But he struggled with the unfairness of life. How, after all, could a righteous God allow children to be kidnapped and abused? How could a decent and loving Creator allow people to starve to death in Africa?


Pt. 2


In the latter years of my father’s life, I would sometimes talk with him about the ultimate fate of his immortal soul. As a believer, of course I was concerned that he inherit the same eternal reward which Jesus won for everyone who would, will, and will eventually call upon his name.


However, each and every time I spoke to my dad, he would always raise those same old questions about God’s fairness, and his belief that, 


“Of course, there is a God. You only have to look into the sky, and gaze upon the stars. But I don’t think He has time for us. At least, He never cared two cents about me.”


I remember my mother once told me that daddy was so disappointed when I gave my life to the Lord Jesus Christ that he quit the Masons. And it was apparently about this time that he no longer attended church with my mom.


Of course, all good things come to an end, and none of us can stay here, and the day came when my father sustained a stroke; which would eventually pave the way for his demise. (Odd, I have a video of his retirement party, and the date stamp is December 30, 1991. Twenty years later, to the very day, Daddy fell, and hit his head on a coffee table).


My father spent three weeks in the hospital, two weeks at home, and another three weeks in a rehabilitative center; during which time our pastor visited him a couple times a week.


I have spoken to Pastor Kern about his visits with my dad, and whether he expressed any interest in spiritual things. And while our minister made me aware that he did not explicitly say the Sinner’s Prayer, what he did say was, at least to me, very enlightening.


Pt. 3


“I would pray at the end of our visits together, and more than once your father would say, ‘Preacher, you’re the best pray-er I ever heard!’”

You remember that passage with which I began this story?


“Now, the thief who spoke these words looked at Jesus, and made a request. 


‘Savior, please don’t forget me when you are seated on your throne in heaven.’


“And Jesus answered him.


‘I will tell you the absolute truth. This very day I will make a place for you in paradise.’” (Excerpt, Luke 23. McDonald Paraphrase)


Somehow, I think it was a lot like that with the pastor and my dad. I kinda think my father’s statement at the end of their time together was, in essence, “proof of life.” (eternal life).


I believe that during one of those pastoral visits, my father came to a saving knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.


I think sometimes we make this thing a bit too hard. After all, if the thief on the cross merely said, “Lord, don’t forget me,” I believe my daddy’s simple words were as equally full of faith. And I am persuaded that the very expression of them implied a distinct change of heart and mind.


I believe we will be surprised and overjoyed to see people we knew in this life on the other side; whom we never expected to see there.


I hope to see my father in heaven. I not only believe I will… I am convinced of it.


Perhaps he’ll be standing next to the thief, that sinful man whose heart God had touched, and who in his waning moments asked our Lord not to forget him.

by William McDonald, PhD. Copyright pending


Friday, September 20, 2019

SIMPLE GESTURES. LASTING REMEMBRANCES

"I am the single mother of four absolutely beautiful little girls. They are 9, 5, 2, and 6 weeks. And things have been particularly rough since my ex left.
My truck had a flat I constantly had to air up. The driver side window motor died. And I needed a new alternator belt. The truck was a mess. And we didn't drive anywhere unless we had to.
Well the other day we desperately needed to go to the store. So we loaded up and drove to the Winn Dixie about 9 blocks away.
When we got out of the store it was far after dark. And POURING rain.
I loaded my kids and groceries into the truck. Tried to crank it...... Nothing. No click. Nothing.
One of my girls had accidentally left a light on. My battery was dead. My phone was also disconnected. I have no family to speak of and was on my own.
I got out and opened my hood to be sure my battery hadn't come loose. Nope.
I must have asked more than twenty people in the course of two hours for a jump. They all ignored me. Not even a no. Just acted like i didn't exist.
My 5 Year old was melting down. My newborn SCREAMING, my two year old crying she was hungry, and my oldest desperately trying to help.
I was bawling and felt like the worst Mom ever.
Then I got a knock on the passenger window. An older gentleman (he was 74) with a cane and a bad limp was on the other side of that knock.
I opened the door. He handed me a plate of chicken strips and biscuits from the deli and bottles of water.
'Feed those babies and yourself young lady. I have a tow truck on the way and my wife will be here shortly to take y'all home.'
Sure enough she arrived followed by the tow truck. Us and our truck were taken home.
The next morning the gentleman returned to my house with a mechanic who replaced my battery and alternator and fixed my window.
The elderly gentleman then left and did not return. When I asked what I owed the mechanic and if I could make payments he smiled telling me the older man had paid for all of it.
He said that the only payment the older man wanted was for me to never give up and keep being an amazing mom.
I've never cried so hard in my life. Things had been absolutely awful. More so than I care to explain.
And without knowing us or our situation this kind man helped us in ways he will never know.
What he did revived my faith when I was falling apart. But he wouldn't even take a hug.
I'll never be able to thank him. But I certainly hope one day I can do what he did for me for someone else."
(Anonymous)

BE THERE




I stare into the eyes of that yellowing, fading portrait of my great Grandparents now, and their dull, unblinking eyes reveal


… absolutely nothing.


And I have often mused, “Why didn’t you leave something behind?”


Oh, how I would have enjoyed knowing you. How wonderful it would have been if you had left some word, some reflection, something of yourselves.


Well, my dear descendants, I have decided NOT to repeat their mistake; (and yes, I consider it an irrevocable mistake; which once the party has passed from this earth can never be corrected.) I think the following daily journal entries, (as well as my previously written autobiography, counseling memoirs, and other volumes) will not only elicit a few laughs, but provide you some insight into the life of your ancestor; someone not unlike yourself, who lived, and loved, and moved, and breathed, and made his way about this earth, and even impacted a few for good, “before you were even a twinkle.”


You deserve it.


And this writer, who by the time you read these words may have long since ceased to live, and love, and breathe, and move, and enjoy the beauty which God has visited upon our planet, can only wish you well, and exhort you to do as I am currently doing…


We are all too close to having eyes which do not see, ears which do not hear, and mouths which do not speak. While there is still time,


Leave something of yourself behind.


And so much more crucial than my previous admonition, I earnestly pray, (and I have prayed for you when you were not, and when only God knew you by name) that you will give your life to the Lord Jesus Christ, and faithfully serve Him, as I believe that I have done. For as a wise and equally well-known man of my time, Dr. James Dobson, (whom I once met, and conversed with) has encouraged his own children, and grandchildren…


… “Be There!”


… “Be There!”


I hope to meet you in heaven. I’ll be waiting just inside the gate.


Granddaddy (William) Royce McDonald

8-22-12

YOU NEVER KNEW (OR MAYBE YOU DID)

You never knew that when we brought you home from the airport you stole our heart and became our first love...or maybe you did.
You never knew people always called you a boy because you were so big...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know you were the best dog we’ve ever owned, the prettiest, and the sweetest and that you were our princess...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know that even though he jumped on you, pulled your tail and became a huge part of our family after you had been “the only child”, you were Cohen’s best friend...or maybe you did.
I’m not even sure you knew you were sick...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know when we took you on that extended golf cart ride last night that it would be your last...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know that the trip to Chic-fil-a to get you ice cream would be the last one you would ever eat...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know that we sent bubs to Gigi’s house so that we could spend more one on one time with you, one last night...or maybe you did.
You didn’t notice or think it was odd that we both took off work today to spend every last minute and second with you...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know that when we laid in the floor with you this morning rubbing your belly and your back, it was us not wanting to let go...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know that one last walk this morning around the pond would be your victory lap...or maybe you did.
When we walked out the door to head to the vet, you didn’t know you weren’t ever coming back...or maybe you did.
You didn’t know that I would cry over you more than any person I have ever lost... or maybe you did.
You never knew the legacy you have built and would leave behind because of how amazing you were...or maybe you did.
We never dreamed this day would come so soon, you were only seven...but maybe you did.
You were the greatest. You were loved unconditionally. You were truly a different breed. You can’t ever be replaced. We will never forget you as long as we live. Forever you will hold a piece of our hearts.
I’m going to miss coming home to your overly excited self, wagging tail and big ol feet. I’m going to miss seeing you run wild and free in North Carolina and at the beach, where I know you always wanted to be, you were my mountain and river dog. You amazed me from the day we first got you, how smart and submissive you were. At times you would annoy the crap out of me and would be stubborn to the core, but I’d take all of it times ten right now to have you back and healthy again.

This is the hardest day of my life and everything reminds me of you. I keep hoping it’s a dream. I pray that you knew you were loved, adored, spoiled, and had equal share in our family. I tried to make these last several of hours with you the best I could, I wanted you to be as happy as possible. I don’t know if dogs really go to Heaven or not, but if you’re there, just go hang out with Jesus until I can meet you there. I love you so much baby girl and you will forever be our princess.
I’m not ok, but I’ll be alright.

Love you baby girl...

(Shawn Lawson)

THE POISON CHALICE


I saw the following musing on a social media site:


“Pain travels through family lines until someone is ready to heal it in themselves. By going through the agony of healing, you no longer pass the poison chalice on to the generations who follow. It is incredibly important, and sacred work.”


My mother used to sit down at the dinner table, and if she wanted the ham or creamed corn, she would nod her head a couple of times in the direction of said kind of food. My wife has, more than once, reminded me that I do exactly the same thing as my mother. As a result, I have wondered how many generations of my mother’s family before her have nodded for their food at the dinner table.


Of course, the foregoing tendency which I have described is, in the scheme of things, rather strange, but also completely innocuous. However, we all possess and display tendencies and traits which I am convinced have come down to our current generation from foregoing generations, and which aren’t so innocent and innocuous.


Recently, I thought a thought related to the so-called “Sins of the Fathers” of the Old Testament. And that thought centered around the tendency of many fathers and mothers to pass down some pretty undesirable traits, as the result of poor role-modeling. I am convinced that far too many people in our day and time have been impacted and inflicted by the role modeling of their parents, and ultimately by succeeding generations before them.

As a counselor I find the initial paragraph of this blog nothing less than compelling. (Go ahead. Read it again). 


I am ‘into’ biblical passages, teachings, and resources related to Mindsets. I have often said, “Mindsets are where it’s at.” Scripture tells us that, “As a man thinks in his heart, so is he” (Prov. 23:7) and “Commit your works unto the Lord, and then your thoughts will be established” (Prov. 16:3) and “Take off the old man (mindset). Put on the new man (mindset).” (Eph. 4:22,24)


Time and space would fail me to write a thesis about this topic. Suffice it to say that I encourage my clients to consider the potential unhealthy role modeling which has been passed down to them by preceding generations, and to, as it were, pour out the poison in their generational chalice.


Someone must make the decision to change the course of successive generations, to identify unhealthy thinking and behaving which needs attention, and to embrace new and healthier mindsets, and the actions which flow out of them.

by William McDonald, PhD. Copyright pending

Thursday, September 19, 2019

THE LAST AMONG BROTHERS


Last night, as I was walking in the wee hours of the morning, it occurred to me that I am the last among brothers.

You see, yesterday, as I was reading a couple of unread messages on a social media site, I noticed a familiar name. I attended church with Donna a full half century ago. She had seen a post in which I mentioned my friendship with Sam and Anita J., and in which I expressed my wonderment about where they were today.

Following is her cryptic message to me.

“In regard to your question, Bill, I’m sorry to tell you that Sam passed away a few years ago, and Anita is now attending a different church.”

You could have knocked me down with a feather. You see, my (then) wife and I befriended this dear black couple when my active duty tour in the Air Force concluded, and we moved from Florida to Virginia. I say we befriended them. Perhaps it was the other way around.

There are those people with whom you just click, and you feel you have known all your life. Sam was one of them. Another member of our church with whom I bonded right away was Bill.

Sam was an encourager, empathetic and given to humor. Bill was a bit more solemn, reflective, and not nearly as outgoing. But they both knew how to be friends, and were.

A couple years later, we moved to Alabama, and one day we received a letter from Marie. Bill had contracted cancer, and ironically enough, Sam’s wife, Anita, an R.N., cared for him in the hospital prior to his passing.

Is it possible that almost five decades have come and gone since Bill left us?

Speaking of Bill, we were traveling together somewhere once, and “just out of the blue,” he said, “I wonder what would happen to Marie if I died young?” I can only think of his question that day as a premonition.



Pt. 2


Then, there was another band of brothers of which I was a part.

Sam and Bob were my section officer and section NCO in my National Guard unit in central Florida. Our three man personnel team were attached to Second Battalion, 116th Field Artillery. We were tasked with visiting one of the five subordinate units of the battalion on a rotating monthly basis; where we performed personnel records checks.

Sam was a warrant officer, but he never put himself out as any different, or any better than his two subordinates. He had a dry sense of humor. I remember once that he told someone he was from South America, and when the guardsman asked, “Where at in South America?” Sam responded, “Alabama. You know South America!”

And then there was Bob. Bob was from New Jersey, and he often mentioned “going down to the shore” when he was young. I recall the day when he was ahead of me in the breakfast chow line, and looking at the mess sergeant, he said, “I’ll have a grit. Give me one grit.”

Our team served together for about fifteen years. As the three of us were all nearing our retirement with the National Guard, we received an invitation, yes, an invitation to take part in “Operation Desert Storm.” Need I mention we all declined the invitation?

However, we received one final call to duty we couldn’t refuse. After Hurricane Andrew our unit was summoned to Homestead, Florida, where over four hundred of us, along with 35,000 other reserve and active duty troops, lived in tents, and served the people of south Florida in various capacities. Our particular unit was there forty days.

Bob was first. He went on to his reward at the age of 59, as the result of a heart attack; one year before his reserve retirement was scheduled to begin. Sam “answered the call to (his heavenly) duty” a few years ago. In each case, I was shocked to receive the news of their respective passing.

They were good friends, and I am poorer for their absence in my life.


Afterward


Two Sam’s, a Bill and a Bob

I could not have asked for better friends in this or any other universe.

Two bands of brothers of which I was privileged to have been included. And I am the last among brothers.

I am reminded of the closing lines in the movie, “The Green Mile.”

“I think about all the people I’ve loved; now long gone. I think about all of us walking our own Green Mile; each in our own time.

“But sometimes, oh God, the Green Mile is so long.”

By William McDonald, PhD. Copyright pending

Wednesday, September 18, 2019

A MOMENTARY MEETING WITH A STRANGER IN SCOTLAND


My wife and I enjoyed the vacation of a lifetime last year. We had often wanted to visit Scotland and Ireland, and were determined to do so by our 70th birthdays. And true to our intentions, we just managed to do so 'by a whisker.'



Our hotel in Glasgow, Scotland stood on the banks of the Clyde River, (or River Clyde, as they are prone to refer to it 'over there'). We were just fifty feet from a beautiful bridge which spanned the river, a hundred yards from the convention center in which the now world famous Susan Boyle was awarded second place in "Britain's Got Talent," and an ancient overhead ship-building crane, for which the wonderful city is known, was just seconds away from the front door of the hotel.



On our second day in Glasgow, I boarded an elevator to take me up to our room on the third floor. And it so happened that a middle-aged, fairly non-descript man stepped on the elevator with me. I must have greeted him with a, "How are you." And recognizing my accent he said, "Are you an American?" And I evidently responded in the affirmative. (I could not be sure, and I did not ask, but based on the stranger's own peculiar accent, I surmised he was probably a native of this country).



As the elevator moved quickly towards my third floor destination, referring to the Second World War, my short-term acquaintance mused,



"Ah, we are so grateful for what your great country did for us; coming over here to help us" (and) "those dear, dear American lads. How we love and appreciate them even today."



And with this the elevator reached its destination, the doors opened, I nodded, and stepped off.



It was just a momentary, circumstantial sort of thing, lasting all of thirty seconds, and yet I will remember my brief interaction with this fine gentleman; as long as I live, and move, and breathe on the earth.


by William McDonald, PhD. Copyright pending

STAND BY ME

1 When the storms of life are raging,
Stand by me (stand by me);
When the storms of life are raging,
Stand by me (stand by me);
When the world is tossing me
Like a ship upon the sea,
Thou Who rulest wind and water,
Stand by me (stand by me).
2 In the midst of tribulation,
Stand by me (stand by me);
In the midst of tribulation,
Stand by me (stand by me);
When the hosts of hell assail,
And my strength begins to fail,
Thou Who never lost a battle,
Stand by me (stand by me).
3 In the midst of faults and failures,
Stand by me (stand by me);
In the midst of faults and failures,
Stand by me (stand by me);
When I do the best I can,
And my friends misunderstand,
Thou Who knowest all about me,
Stand by me (stand by me).
4 In the midst of persecution,
Stand by me (stand by me);
In the midst of persecution,
Stand by me (stand by me);
When my foes in battle array
Undertake to stop my way,
Thou Who savèd Paul and Silas,
Stand by me (stand by me).
5 When I’m growing old and feeble,
Stand by me (stand by me);
When I’m growing old and feeble,
Stand by me (stand by me);
When my life becomes a burden,
And I’m nearing chilly Jordan,
O Thou “Lily of the Valley,”
Stand by me (stand by me).


THE QUIET CRUCIBLE OF YOUR PERSONAL PRIVATE SUFFERING

It is in the crucible of your personal, private suffering that your noblest dreams are born and God's greatest gifts are given; in compensation for what you have endured.


Rev. Wintley Phipps

Saturday, September 14, 2019

WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN


Lately, I have experienced a recurring thought involving, for lack of a better phrase, “What might have been.”


Perhaps my first “for instance” involves what had the potential to be a rather lucrative sports profession. But, allow me to digress a bit.


As a 14 or 15 year old, I would grab my trusty skateboard, and transistor radio, and “sidewalk surf” my way along a four lane highway, a distance of about a mile and a half, to the only bowling alley within twenty miles in any direction. Since it has been almost sixty years since that little season of my life, it is impossible to be sure if what I am describing took place strictly on Saturdays, or whether my mother allowed me to bowl after the bus dropped me off in the afternoon.


Whatever the case, I seemed to have a natural gift for the sport. For you see, in fairly short order, I was bowling 170 and 180 virtually every time I ‘cued up’ behind that old wooden alley, and sometimes I attained an even better score. And to be sure, I always bowled alone. I remember one day and one game in which I bowled an astounding 280. Afterwards, the bowling alley manager, Ron, bought me a congratulatory lemonade. It was the first and only time I was that close to bowling a perfect game.


I have often thought that, had I chosen to pursue the professional bowling circuit, I might easily have done so. I mean, I was that good at a precocious young age. And yet, for whatever reason, it never occurred to me to so much as inquire about it, much less roll a single ball in competition with another human being; professional or otherwise.


No doubt, I might have earned a sizable amount of money. However, at the grand old age of 70, that season of my life has long since eluded me; since I am lucky to bowl a 100 today. 


Whoever dreamed up the phrase, “If you don’t use it, you lose it” knew what they were talking about.”


Pt. 2


Another example in which my life might have taken a different turn occurred in the mid-70’s. I was freshly out of the Air Force, and I and my wife, (at the time) had moved from Tampa, Florida to the little town of Stafford, Virginia. I had meandered from menial job to menial job, and one day I happened to see an advertisement on the Woolco bulletin board for a shoe department manager trainee.


Well, I can tell you that this opportunity looked a whole lot better to me than the prestigious, well-paying (not) position I worked at the time. You see, I stood in front of a shredded paper blower for eight hours a day, and at said location I filled up paper bag after paper bag with the dusty stuff. When the bag was full, I ran the top of it across a sewing machine head. After my initial training, (which consisted of approximately 53 seconds), I had it down pat.


Needless to say, after working in this environment for several weeks, and walking out to my car every afternoon, looking like a zombie which had crawled out of the grave, I was ready for something, anything different.

I made the call, and spoke to the manager of the Kinney Shoe Corporation lease unit, Tom Hollister. I explained that I worked a pretty nasty, menial job, and that at the end of the work day I drove a half hour to my home in Stafford. Having gotten a grasp of my academics, military history, and supposed intelligence, the fellow on the other end of the line suggested I stop by, and speak to him on the way home. 


Of course, I reminded him how filthy, and ‘fragrant’ I was by this time of day, but he insisted, and I assured him I would stop by that very afternoon. It was obvious that he had little or no regard for formalities, and that he possessed the wherewithal to look beyond the outward appearance.

I met Mr. Hollister in the Woolco snack bar, and he lost little time in relieving me of my onerous duties at “Ajax Insulation Company.” 

As I prepared to take my leave, I remember my new employer quipped,

“Just make sure you take a shower before you come in tomorrow, and put on a shirt and tie!”


Pt. 3


I served as Tom’s assistant manager for about a year, and, ultimately, I was offered an opportunity I could not refuse, and I accepted my own managerial position with the Woolco shoe department in Gadsden, Alabama.


Apparently, Mr. Hollister had trained me well since the first year I was there, I was recognized as “Rookie of the Year” for my district. After serving at this location for a couple of years, I was promoted again. Now I accepted a Woolco shoe department in North Wales, Pennsylvania.


Ultimately, I went on to bigger and better things. Well, for a period of time, simply other things. However, after I overcame my immaturity, I enrolled in a teacher’s training program at a local university. As I was nearing the completion of my undergraduate degree, I received a call from the vice president of the lease division of Kinney Shoe Corporation. The conversation went very much like the following.


“Hi Bill, this is Lamoine Adams. We met once, maybe six or eight years ago. I flew down to your store in Gadsden, Alabama, and Thomas Trnka, (the district manager) and I spent some time with you.”


To which I responded,


“Yes, Mr. Adams. Of course, I remember you.”


He continued.


“Bill, we were very impressed with your work ethic, and the way you increased the profitability of the two units you managed. I want to offer you a management position in the Woolco unit in Key West, Florida. You’re already living in Florida, and it just occurred to me that this might be a good fit for you and for us.”


There’s an old saying, “Once a shoe dog. Always a shoe dog.”


Well, I guess I must have been the exception to the rule since I provided Lamoine a slightly different response, than he might have preferred.


“Uhmmm, I appreciate your offer, Mr. Adams, but I just can’t. I’m nearing the completion of my bachelor’s degree in education, and, honestly, teaching is my priority right now. But thank you for thinking of me.”


And that was that.


Pt. 4


As I have previously inferred, my wife, family and I had moved to Virginia, where I worked a number of menial jobs, (including the prestigious paper-blower role) before applying for a Civil Service position at the Pentagon.


I will always recall stepping into the massive building, walking its hallways, marveling at the myriad of intersecting hallways, and contemplating the possibility that I would have the opportunity to contribute to the health and welfare of my great nation in such a prominent location.


As it fell together, I filled out the required paperwork, completed a typing test, was hired, and was scheduled to begin work at the most famous military building in this or any other universe. 


And while it seemed to be a good idea at the time, I, ultimately, declined the position. On a good day, my home in Stafford was an hour drive, and, of course, I would expend another hour in the afternoon returning from whence I came.


Of course, a quarter century later, on a bright and cloudless summer day, the focus of the entire world was on the two tallest buildings in America, and a lonely field in Pennsylvania, and on the most massive, most strategic military building on earth.


I have often mused that had I accepted the position, and remained at the Pentagon, I would have been nearing my retirement on 911. And who can say what might have been my fate had I reported for work on that singular day in our nation's history?


Afterward


The foregoing accounts of my vocational twists and turns are just the tip of the proverbial iceberg. It is easy to wonder where any of us might have been had we made a few slightly different choices during a crucial season of our lives. 


I have never made a great deal of money, but I have been blessed with friendships, and I have been gifted to impact those whom God foreordained that I would meet along the highways and byways of my life.


I like the parting scene in the movie, “Mr. Holland’s Opus,” in which the fictional character is retiring from a thirty year stint as a music teacher at a large high school. A middle-aged woman with flaming red hair, the governor of the state, steps to the microphone.


“Mr. Holland had a great influence on my life. On a lot of lives at Kennedy High School, I know. And I have the feeling that he considers a great deal of his life misspent. He wrote this symphony of his to be performed, possibly to make him rich or famous; probably both. Well, he isn’t rich or famous; except in this little town.

He might even consider his life a failure… but I think he has achieved a success which goes beyond mere riches or fame. Look around you, Mr. Holland. For there is not a life in this room that you have not touched. And each of us is a better person for meeting you, or for being your student. This is your symphony, Mr. Holland. We are the notes and melodies of your opus. 


…We are the music of your life.”


Over the past few decades, God has graciously provided me the opportunity to counsel thousands, teach hundreds, and mentor dozens. And I acknowledge not only that providential plan which allowed all of this to fall into place, but the gracious wherewithal He has bestowed upon me to make a difference in the lives of them whom He has set in my pathway.


And like Mr. Holland, I am neither rich nor famous; not even in my little town. But I like to think that with all my time and effort, I have irrevocably touched the lives which He has committed to my care. And they are the notes and melodies of my life.

My life hasn't always fallen together the way I pictured it, or the way in which it might have gone, but I am content that I am in the very center of God's plans for my life, and how could I ask or expect more than that?

by William McDonald, PhD. Copyright pending

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Monday, September 9, 2019

ISLE OF HOPE. ISLE OF TEARS




My wife and I just completed the most glorious vacation of our entire lives.

We have traveled the highways and byways of Ireland, Northern Ireland and Scotland. We have gazed in wonder at the snow-capped mountains, we have marveled at the singular color of the lush grassy pastures; upon which sheep and cattle feed, we have listened to the mournful sound of the bagpipes, and watched Scottish and Irish dancers strut their stuff, we have sampled foods which baffle the taste buds, we have interacted with the loveliest people to grace the planet, we have walked the quaint lanes and admired the most colorful and interesting of flora and fauna.


Dublin and its massive cathedrals and ancient pubs. The stone ruins of a monastic village. Forty shades of green. 19th century remnants of the “Famine Houses.” Sea gulls and ocean waves. A Depression-era farm house. Dingle Bay. Massive castles. The Massacre of the MacDonald Clan. The English Occupation of Ireland, and the cruelty they exercised. The Potato Famine. The “Trouble” of Northern Ireland. Sharing “Danny Boy” and “Amazing Grace” with our amazing group of fellow travelers. The Titanic Museum. Drunken and aimless young adults. Street Beggars. Waterford Crystal. A mythical, but very real island. Greyfriar’s Bobby. Sheep shearing. Edinburgh’s pipers. Family roots.


One of the most poignant, and almost magical moments which I experienced during our trip to the Old Country occurred at a dinner theater in Dublin referred to as “Taylor’s Three Rock.” During the course of the evening my daughter and I were afforded some wonderful food, singing, dancing and comedy. However, as I have previously implied, one moment stood out from all the rest.



Pt. 2

Almost without warning, a video appeared on the overhead screen which featured numerous ancient photographs of 19th century men, women and children, immigrants all, ships, mountains, rivers, ocean waves, the Statue of Liberty, and Ellis Island, the proverbial (and literal) gateway to the golden door which was and continues to be America. 


But “what got me,” what really grabbed me and would not let me go, what struck a spine-tingling cord within me, and inspired my innate sensibilities was the music which accompanied the video.


Isle of Hope. Isle of Tears


On the first day of January 1892
They opened Ellis Island and they let the people through
And the first to cross the threshold of that isle of hope and tears
Was Annie Moore from Ireland who was all of 15 years



Isle of hope, isle of tears
Isle of freedom, isle of fears
But it’s not the isle you left behind
That isle of hunger, isle of pain
Isle you’ll never see again
But the isle of home is always on your mind



I’d never heard the song before, but I can so identify with it. While most or all of my immediate ancestors immigrated to the United States in the 17th, 18th and 19th centuries, before there was an Ellis Island, they came nonetheless; in most cases, leaving all they ever knew and held so dear. Fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, friends, homes and land. And in most cases, those who boarded those old triple-masted ships were left with mental images of what was, and would never be again, and they never returned to the lands from whence they sprang.


As the video and its accompanying melody continued, tears sprang to my eyes, and, subsequently, rolled down my cheeks.


In a little bag, she carried all her past and history
And her dreams for the future in the land of liberty
And courage is the passport when your old world disappears
But there’s no future in the past when you’re 15 years



Isle of hope, isle of tears
Isle of freedom, isle of fears
But it’s not the isle you left behind
That isle of hunger, isle of pain
Isle you’ll never see again
But the isle of home is always on your mind



Pt. 3



I, as was my father before me, am an amateur genealogist, and I love and care deeply for those who have gone on before; though all they left to us were a few sundry bits of information, and fading celluloid photographs. There was a time when they lived, and moved and breathed and loved. They were here, and we were not. And we owe them our very existence, and our own ability to live and breathe and move, as they did before us. And having dared fate, braved the elements, and stared down fear, every man, woman and child among them grasped their providential destinies, and endured ‘til the end.



My 3x great Grandfather Isham McDonald, born in Ireland of Scottish parents, who left it all behind, including his dear papa and mama, “set up shop” in South Carolina, and served in the fledgling Continental Army throughout the American Revolution.



My 3x great Grandmother Mary Elizabeth Stewart, born on the Isle of Skye, Scotland in the 17th century, who as a young lass dared journey to a place she knew little or nothing about, and which lay across four thousand miles of turbulent ocean. Never to return to the island of her birth, nor to friends and family whom she held so dear. And on those rough-hewn wooden docks, she left a hundred kisses on their cheeks.



My 9x great Grandfather Daniel Mackhoe, of Edinburgh, a Jacobite; one of Bonnie Prince Charlie’s men. Old Dan fought at the Battle of Dunbar, and having been taken prisoner by the British was led on a forced march to a distant stockade; during which time thousands of his compatriots died. Ultimately, my ancient Grandfather was involuntary consigned to the ship, “John and Sara” and adopted, and was adopted by the most bless-ed country which ever graced this planet.



When they closed down Ellis Island in 1943
17 million people had come there for sanctuary
And in springtime when I came here and I stepped onto its piers
I thought of how it must have been when you’re 15 years






But the isle of home is always on your mind

But the isle of home is always on your mind



Pt. 4

I brought up the “Celtic Woman” version of, “Isle of Hope. Isle of Tears” today, and without notice tears sprang to my eyes, and I could not contain the sobs which rose in my throat! My wife was standing nearby and uttered an “ahhhh,” and bent down to hug me. And before she was close enough to extend her sympathetic arms, my little pooch drew near, and gazed at me like she’d lost her dearest friend. She just knew I was experiencing one of the most singular moments of my life.


While we were in Ireland, and Northern Ireland and Scotland my mind was taken up with my known and unknown grandfathers and grandmothers, as it never was before.


I left a tribute to each of them in the form of a simple note on the face of a dollar bill; which recounted their names and lives, and whatever else to which I was privy; along with my name and relationship to them.

And with this, I secreted the bill beneath a desk, or bureau, or bedstead in the room to which we were assigned, and in the applicable country with which my forefathers were most and best acquainted.


And whereas, I left a piece of my heart, and a paltry bit of cash behind, my dear grandfathers and grandmothers surrendered all their heart, and the losses they sustained cannot be calculated.


And whereas, these never returned to the peoples and homes and lands they knew and loved so well, I think, in essence, I have returned in their place.


Isle of hope, isle of tears
Isle of freedom, isle of fears
But it’s not the isle you left behind
That isle of hunger, isle of pain
Isle you’ll never see again


But the isle of home is always on your mind

But the isle of home is always on your mind


by William McDonald, PhD. Copyright pending

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