An Interview with Laura Hillenbrand,
the author of "Seabiscuit," and who suffers a life-altering illness.
*How did the
illness affect your ability to write this book? ("Seabiscuit") Were there long periods of time
when you could neither do research nor write? Did you get discouraged at times?
What kept you going?
Writing this
book was immensely important to me, but my illness made it hard. I had to
accept that there would be a large physical price to pay for undertaking this
project, and that I would have to pare away the rest of my life to save my
strength for what I wanted to do. For
the four years that I researched and wrote this book, I did virtually nothing
else. I devoted everything I had to it. I had my office set up so that there
was a refrigerator, cereal boxes, bowls, spoons, and a giant jug of water right
by my desk, allowing me to keep on working without wasting energy on fixing
meals. I stacked research books in a semicircle on the floor around my chair so
I wouldn’t have to get up to get them. I couldn’t travel to my sources, but
found ways around this by making maximum use of the Library of Congress’
interlibrary loan service, the Internet, my fax machine, email and, of course,
my telephone.
For the most part, my body held together. I worked whenever I had
strength, sometimes at odd hours, and I often worked until completely
exhausted, and dizzy. There were days when it was almost impossible to move,
but I usually found something I still had the strength to do. If I was too
dizzy to write, I did interviews. If I was too weak to sift through books, I sat
still and wrote. Sometimes I worked while in bed, lying on my back and
scribbling on a pad with my eyes closed. Though it was hard to do this, there
was never a point at which I became discouraged. These subjects were just too
captivating for me to ever consider abandoning the project. The price I paid
was steep. Within hours of turning in the manuscript, my health collapsed
completely. The vertigo returned in force, and I was unable to read or write at
all for several months. I also became markedly weaker and was rendered almost
entirely homebound again. Well over a year later, I still haven’t completely
recovered.
But it was
worth it.
As difficult as
the illness made the writing and research process, I think I also have it to thank for spurring me into the
project. Being sick has truncated my life dramatically, drastically narrowing
the possibilities for me. For fifteen years, I
have had very little contact with the world. The illness has left me
very few avenues for achievement, or for connecting with people. Writing is my
salvation, the one little area of my life where I can still reach out into the
world and create something that will remain after I am gone. It enables me to
define myself as a writer instead of a sick person. Because of this, I felt so
immensely powerful motivating me to write this book, and writing it as well as
I could.
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