It’s funny
how long it takes to get over some of our hurts; (if indeed, we ever do).
During the
course of the past year I have struggled with something; something inestimably
unfair, and which has no chance, whatsoever, of turning around, but rather,
represents a circumstance which will remain intact throughout the remainder of
my natural life.
How
inestimably sad. How inestimably unfair. And yet, it is what it is.
Rather like
a situation in the life of my first pastor; after my having come to a saving
knowledge of the Lord.
During the
course of his pastorate he was almost literally turned out into the cold; since
he was “given the gift” of a vote of no confidence, and asked to go about his
merry way.
As a result,
I watched my beloved pastor’s mindset and physical health rapidly deteriorate.
Bitterness prevailed, and before he went on to his reward, he experienced
dementia, and became bedridden.
And I have
mused about the best way to navigate beyond that which currently ails me since
I have no wish, whatsoever, to end up like Bro. Dewitt.
The archival
radio broadcast “Night Sounds,” now available on the internet,
(www.nightsoundsradio.org) has become such an integral part of my life over the
past few years. On tonight’s program, the late host of the program, Bill
Pearce, sang one of my two or three favorite songs of all time.
“I’d Rather
Have Jesus.”
Oh, how that
man could sing!
In an
earlier program Bill played one of the others on my list.
“All the Way
My Savior Leads Me.”
The
wonderful baritone voice of Fred Frank permeated the night air, and brought
solace to my anxious spirit; (and so, each time I care to listen to it, for I
have “saved” it to my files).
But it
occurs to me that in these two songs I possess the key to navigating past my
hurt. Oh, it won’t be easy, and those old raw emotions are likely to rise to
the surface again, but there is such power in the titles and message of these
bless-ed songs.
I can find
myself caught up with irreconcilable pain brought on by any of a myriad of
unfairnesses of the past, and with which I have no control.
Or I can say
with the saints of the ages,
“I’d Rather
Have Jesus.”
For isn’t He
“Fairer than lilies of rarest bloom?”
(and)
Isn’t He “Sweeter
than honey from out the comb?”
And I can be
bound up with the inestimably hurtful memories of yesteryear, and allow them to
prevent me from fulfilling God’s best will during the remainder of a lifetime
(or)
I can begin
walking past the past, and when this life nears it decidedly certain end exalt
in those wonderful words,
… “Jesus Led
Me All the Way.”
By William McDonald, PhD. Excerpt from "(Mc)Donald's Daily Diary" Vol. 18. Copyright pending
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