4564
Musings
Thursday, August 27, 2026
IF YOUR DOG WROTE YOUR BIOGRAPHY
Tuesday, August 25, 2026
A DOG NAMED ANGEL
4563
Pt. 1
Buddy, our white and auburn female Shih Tzu, was about eleven
years old when she began walking the well-worn pathway leading to the Rainbow
Bridge.
As my wife and I prepared to take a well-deserved vacation to
Hilton Head, South Carolina, Buddy began exhibiting some troublesome medical
symptoms. A couple of days before we left, I shared my concerns with Shirlene,
one of my sister-in-law’s, and mused that it might be wise to take my precious
pooch on a one way trip to the vet; before we left for vacation. Shirlene
disagreed, and said,
“Royce, if Buddy is fairly stable at the moment, you should
wait ‘til you get back to do the deed” (and) “You don’t want to be overwhelmed
with grief while you are on vacation.”
She convinced me in
short order.
As a result, we left our dear little Shih Tzu with Sue, my
other sister-in-law, and Jean and I headed out for South Carolina. As it fell
together, Buddy hadn’t eaten much while we were gone, and she simply hadn’t
been a real “happy camper.”
Six or eight days later, we returned, and stopped by to pick
up our little pooch. Initially, Buddy gave us “the cold shoulder.” She was not
impressed that we had gone off, and left her. Now, I don’t know if she
intuitively knew that we had been to the beach, but we had once taken her to
the east coast of Florida, and she had enjoyed running up, and down on the
white sand, and frolicking along the edge of the waves.
However, in short order Buddy seemed to forgive us, and she
“warmed up” to our loving words, and kisses. But, as much as we tried, she
refused to eat anything that day; with the exception of a small piece of
chocolate. (I confess, I have always given my dogs a modest amount of this
delicacy, in spite of the fact, or myth, that it wasn’t good for them).
Pt. 2
And as the day of our return wore away, it was obvious that
Buddy wasn’t long for this world.
She was used to sleeping with me, and she had her own pillow
at the end of the bed. We laid down earlier than usual, as my precious pooch
had begun hyperventilating, and alternatively, her respiration would slow to
five or six breaths a minute. As the evening progressed, Buddy’s tongue took on
a pasty white color. Neither our little white and auburn Shih Tzu, nor I got
any sleep. I knew it was just a matter of hours. (My wife made the comment
later that, “there’s no way I could have put Buddy in bed with me that night”).
Morning dawned, and I may have slept two hours. I’m doubtful
Buddy slept at all. Scooping her up, I noticed her breathing was on the low
ebb, and continued to be shallow. Now, I retrieved her doggie bed, and laid it,
and her in the living room, walked into the dining room, and dialed the number
of one of my counseling clients from the Dominican Republic, whose given name
was “Angel,” and took care of some quick business. (Speaking of Angel, our
daughter had given Buddy the alternative name of Angel).
Finishing my call, I walked back into the living room, and
discovered our little pooch was no longer laboring to breathe. She had crossed
the proverbial Rainbow Bridge. It soon dawned on me that our precious pooch had
been denied several years of life due to the steroidal medication we had given
her on a regular basis. However, without it, she would have scratched her eyes
out, as like so many of her breed, she had significant allergies.
In retrospect, it seemed our little Angel had mustered up
whatever was required to linger on this good earth ‘til we returned from
vacation, and, subsequently, she was gone in the course of one night.
Ironically enough, while I was on the phone with a client
named Angel, our little Angel had been visited by her Death Angel.
by Bill McDonald, PhD
Monday, August 24, 2026
STORM CLOUDS, GOONEY BIRDS AND CUBAN COFFEE
4562
Pt. 1
Today marks 34 years since we received the
call. My National Guard unit had been mobilized to report to south Florida, as
the result of the devastation visited by Hurricane Andrew upon the City of
Homestead.
As our convoy rushed past pine trees, and palmetto
bushes, and entered “the zone of
influence,” it seemed we transcended a fine line of demarcation between intact
civilization, and what might well have passed for a war zone.
Whereas, the flora which surrounded us showed little or
no sign of having been impacted by the Category 5 winds of Hurricane Andrew,
and I had begun to wonder why we had been called away from the lives to which
we were generally accustomed, the devastation which suddenly greeted us was
nothing less than incomprehensible.
Palm trees broken like matchsticks, and haphazardly
scattered across acres of countryside which bordered our asphalt entre into a
real-life Neverland. A automobile dealership with its doors and windows blown
out, and its stock in trade heaped in colorful metallic piles around it. An
ocean going vessel, a hundred feet in length, lying on its side beneath a
highway overpass. Multiplied thousands of businesses and expensive homes
annihilated by the mindless, unmitigated force of nature.
And what struck me strange was how much like this little
piece of south Florida resembled Maine in Wintertime, as every plant, bush and
tree had been rudely stripped of their leaves; (a condition which was summarily
reversed when, so uncharacteristic of Florida, and as we neared the end of our
mission, a multitude of buds graced every stem and branch).
It was August and it was hot, and the lack of air
conditioning, or even a fan in the green canvas Army tents which served as our
homes away from home was just short of unbearable. Rain water washed easily
across the floor of our transient tabernacle, and the buzz and subsequent bite
of a thousand bloodsuckers provided scant little respite, as we slipped, still
deeper, into our heavy, woolen sleeping bags.
Pt. 2
The 2nd Battalion, 116th Field
Artillery was stationed at the Metro Zoo; or at least what was left of it. Most
of the animals had been evacuated to other locations, outside the projected
perimeter of Ground Zero. However, a nearby research facility had been
abandoned in place and left unattended. And as a result, some unintended
results were in the offing.
Dozens of monkeys were on the prowl. But not just your
garden variety monkeys. Did I mention the facility which they called home was
an AIDS research complex? (Well, it was). And as you might imagine, we were
admonished to shoot the little fellas on sight. To my knowledge none of our
troops chanced upon any of the little boogers. Word is that many of the hapless
simians migrated to the nearby everglades, (and there is every reason to
believe that their contaminated descendants continue to populate the area).
My section wound up with a couple of assignments during
the course of our 40 day tenure in the most God forsaken two hundred square
mile piece of ground on Planet Earth.
“Country Walk” was (and perhaps, by now, is again) an
exclusive subdivision made up of half million dollar homes. But I regret to say
Hurricane Andrew made short work of the place. And in retrospect, it was
discovered that the building codes were insufficient for winds half as strong
as this storm visited on the place.
Large heaps of plywood and orange tile bearing little
semblance to the magnificent homes which once lined the idyllic streets upon
which we navigated our camouflaged Humvees. Manicured yards covered with fallen
oak trees, and a neighbor’s kitchen garbage.
And from my guard post, near the entrance of the formerly
elite community, one of the most peculiar sights to which I have ever been
exposed.
A 1930’s era C-47 prop airplane sitting “all by its
lonely” in a nearby field; with little or no visible damage. I asked my section
chief about it, and Sergeant Hoehne informed me that unlike the proverbial
turtle on a fence post, this plane definitely got there by itself. For you see,
before the recent storm collapsed the hanger in which it had been on permanent
display, the aged “Gooney Bird” had been part and parcel of a WWII collection
of vintage airplanes.
Almost inexplicably, it had been lifted into the air by a
small, embedded twister, done its own solitary ‘Dorothy in Kansas’ act, and
managed to take its last flight… without a pilot. Ultimately, as though resting
in the hand of Providence, the plane experienced the shortest flight, and the
strangest landing of its long and storied career.
Pt. 3
Day gave way to night, and night gave way to day, and as
Sergeant Bob and I relieved the night shift one morning, and took our place
near the guard shack, a thirty something year old man stepped out of a nearby
house, (or what was left of it) ambled over to us, and proceeded to share a
story which easily gave my previous tale of the Gooney Bird “a run for its
money.”
For it seems Robert and his wife made the fateful
decision to remain in their home and weather the hurricane. Given the now
obvious state of their little corner of paradise, it almost cost them their
lives.
August 24, 1992. A day that will live in infamy; at least
a day the citizens of the Miami suburb which was Homestead, Florida will
remember for as long as they draw breath. And for those such as Robert and
Trisha, who chose to “ride it out” in their homes, the experience was not only
memorable, but the most traumatic circumstance of their entire lives.
But I’ll allow Robert to tell the tale.
“Trish and I have experienced other hurricanes, and we
figured this one couldn’t be much worse. I mean, our house has weathered
several of ‘em, and the worst of it was always a few missing shingles.
It began very much like the other storms. The clouds grew
dark, and the wind picked up a bit, and of course we’d tuned our television to
the Weather Channel.
I guess we had been lulled into complacency. I mean the
weatherman can ‘cry wolf’ so many times, and so many times the storm’s bark is
so much worse that its bite.
Pt. 4
But we found out the hard way. 30 or 40 minutes into the
thing, it got bad. I mean, it got really bad, and we began to question our
sanity for staying put in our house. We could hear shingles flying off the
roof, and then a few hairline cracks appeared in the ceiling. Suddenly,
something smashed into our front bay window, and the wind came roaring into our
living room.
I grabbed Trisha’s hand and we ran for the hall bathroom.
It was all I could do to push the door shut behind us. The sounds around us
were just monstrous; like nothing I’d ever heard before. At this point, we got
into the bathtub, clothes and all, and just sat there in each other’s arms.
Sergeant, I’m not ashamed to tell you I was more afraid
than I have ever been before, or ever hope to be again. We just held one
another, affirmed our love for each other, and said our ‘goodbyes.’ I honestly
expected a first responder or insurance agent would discover our bodies. Of
course, I didn’t share my thoughts with Trish.”
Robert continued.
“Thank God for that small bathroom. It was the only room
which came through the storm intact. We simply could not have survived in any
other room in our house. The ceilings collapsed, and every window had been
blown out. Glass and debris was everywhere.”
Before Robert returned to what was left of his former
home he made us aware that he’d just been interviewed for a feature segment on
the popular news show, “20/20.” (And though I have attempted to locate that
particular segment, I’ve never run across it).
Pt. 5
Of course, I previously inferred my section performed
another role during the 40 days we served in aftermath of Hurricane Andrew.
(And I have never been able to refer to that season without thinking of Noah,
and the 40 day aftermath of the Great Flood; when the Ark waited to rest on dry
land).
About halfway into that little season, (although it
seemed interminable) our duties at Country Walk culminated, and we were
diverted to the flea market in Homestead. And admittedly, under such
circumstances one might wonder what eight or ten reservists would be doing at a
flea market, after what at the time was the worst storm in U.S. history. And I
can only respond, “Well, I’m glad you asked.”
The federal government was, as the result of the storm,
in the process of dispensing emergency food stamps to the citizens of that
extended community, and since the value of this commodity was in the multiplied
millions of dollars, our unit provided armed security. (And my dear readers,
armed we were). Whereas, the 25,000 active duty troops in the area walked
around with unloaded M-16’s, (as Martial Law had not been declared) each and
every one of the 10,000 members of the Florida Army National Guard carried a
full clip of live rounds. (None of that Barney Fife and the one bullet in his
pocket thing for us).
I recall a couple of unforgettable experiences during our
tour of duty at the flea market.
A young Haitian woman approached my section chief with a
question, but it was readily apparent she didn’t speak English. Having had a
year of French in college, I immediately recognized her need, and I responded
with, “Voila la toilette,” and pointed towards a distant Port-a-Potty. (Had she
wanted a rundown of the latest stock market report I’m afraid my fluency in the
French language, or lack thereof, would have failed me).
Pt. 6
I will always remember the kindness of an elderly Cuban
woman who offered me a cup of that rich dark coffee for which her little island
is so widely known. And while I was not then, nor am I now a fan of coffee, I
absolutely loved it. As it fell together a quarter of a century would ensue
before I would taste it again. Just the other day my wife and I walked into a
local Cuban restaurant and ordered a cup of the lovely stuff. (Somewhat of a
distant echo of a mission completed, and a job well done).
A few minutes later the sky grew dark, and a common, run
of the mill Florida thunderstorm approached from the east; (the same direction
from whence Hurricane Andrew and its devastating 180 mph winds had come). As
the wind freshened, and it began to sprinkle, a little dark-haired girl in the
crowd, perhaps all of five years of age, began crying, and could not be
comforted. I immediately recognized the symptoms, and surmised that like Robert
and Trisha, her family had, just three weeks before, chosen to remain in their
home, rather than flee the impending storm. (No doubt, the now thirty-something
year old woman is still triggered when the sky grows dark, the winds begin to
blow, and a little H2O descends from the sky).
We must have been quite a sight walking in and out of
stores and eating establishments wearing camo clothing, and with our M-16’s
slung over our shoulders. (Somewhat reminiscent of Uganda and Idi Amin). On one
especially memorable day, perhaps a month into our tenure in that
storm-stricken city, SFC Hoehne and I walked out of a local McDonald’s; having
just purchased our own respective “to go” meals. And without warning, a lovely
young woman walked up, wrapped her arms around me, and exclaimed,
“You guys just don’t know how much we appreciate you”
(and) “Thank you for helping us.”
And as quickly as she appeared, she was gone. I never
cease to think of her, and though her name eludes me, I hope she is well, and I
often mention her in my prayers.
Pt. 7
The last day
finally arrived and several hundred guardsmen were more than ready to bid
‘adieu’ to their adopted city. Our task was complete, and yet, there were tasks
and missions plenty for countless volunteers in the months which lay ahead.
As we walked
across the parking lot reminiscing about our singular experiences, a bald eagle
drifted over our heads, flew the length of our compound, and disappeared on the
horizon. Tears filled my eyes. The tour was done, but would never be forgotten.
We were
back, but we would never be the same. We could only be the better for that
which we had seen, that which we had experienced, and for those brave citizens
whom we had met.
We had
returned to our natural environment. The air seemed fresher. The flowers more
colorful. The sky a bit bluer. Oh, how thankful we were on the other side of
the storm.
Odd, it took
two weeks before I overcame the unexpected fatigue which overwhelmed me, and it
became apparent that I had too long been exposed to the whites and blacks and
browns and grays of that hurricane-stricken city. And I realized how that awful
place had somehow impacted my visual sensibilities, and resulted in a physical
weariness.
But what of
those we left behind?
Their lives
were budding again. Just as surely as the trees of their city began to bud
anew, after being so rudely stripped of their leaves.
by Bill McDonald, PhD
Sunday, August 23, 2026
WHEN A DOOR ISN'T A DOOR. Pts. 1&2
4561
Pt. 1
A couple of weeks ago, I opened the sliding glass door, and let our little black and white Papillon pooch go out, along with our two other wire terriers. After the three animals had made their way through the door, I stepped out behind them, and closed it behind me; since there are plenty of mosquitos in Florida this time of year. While my precious pooches answered nature's call, I sat down in a lawn chair on the screened porch.
Toby was the first one done. In the past I had left the sliding door open wide enough for the dogs to get back into the house. But, as I have implied, I paid for it with a host of flying blood suckers. As Toby came through the porch door, he lost no time finding his way into the house. (Well, it was a noble attempt anyway). For as I have also alluded, I had pulled the door shut. A short run, a shorter hop, and... BAM!
To be fair, it was dark, and the little 12 year old pooch has developed cataracts. (I have wondered how much longer Toby will be with us since I just "don't do" blind dogs).
As the result of the little fella's misfortune with that unyielding surface, I chuckled involuntarily, and said,
"Toby, can't you see that door!"
Pt. 2
And I suddenly felt ashamed of myself because an unpleasant memory came flooding back.
I had done very much the same thing 60 years hence.
You see, I was 14 or 15 at the time, and my father had just come in from fishing. He had parked his truck in the back yard, and was in the process of walking into the back porch with a 12 pound bass. As you might imagine, I just had to see that monster close up. I was about 8 feet from the sliding glass door, and wasted no time in shortening the distance between me and he.
And then, and then...
BAM!
I hit the closed sliding glass door at full speed... and literally ran right through it!
(Not the way I wanted to "meet and greet" that scaly creature)!
I sustained a serious cut on my leg, and a large scar is still there to prove it.
Post-script
I regret to say that Toby had not yet learned his lesson since a few days ago the little guy made the same mistake! A short run, a shorter hop, and... BAM!
This time I didn't laugh. And this time I didn't ask him the obvious question. Again, the memory of that day from so long ago came flooding back, and I picked up my startled little Papillon, cuddled him in my arms, and said,
"Oh, Toby, I'm so sorry."
He seemed none the worse for wear.
Tonight was altogether different. Of course, I was prepared to pull the sliding door open when Toby came prancing in. However, he walked in at a much slower speed, paused, and... pressed his nose up against the glass.
We had both learned a HARD lesson. I was so much more empathetic given that memory from my personal yesteryear, and Toby was determined to avoid that unforgiving, almost invisible surface which had so rudely halted his forward progress.
by Bill McDonald, PhD
Thursday, August 20, 2026
911: MY PERSONAL "WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN"
4560
Who among us can forget what we were doing on that fateful morning of September 11, 2001. Much like the Kennedy Assassination, or the Challenger Disaster. Such events are seared into the fabric of our very souls.
My wife and I were home, and I was doing something which I had never done before. I was helping her dye her hair. (Don't tell her I told you). At any rate, suddenly there was a news break during whatever morning program we were watching. An aircraft had flown into one of the World Trade Center towers. I don't recall any particular conjecture at that moment that it might have been related to terrorism. Of course, when the second airplane hit the other tower, there was NO doubt whatsoever. Terrorists had managed to pull off a dastardly deed unlike anything, (other than perhaps Pearl Harbor), that had ever been perpetrated on America before.
Before the morning was over, of course, another aircraft was hijacked and crashed in Pennsylvania, and a fourth airplane slammed into the Pentagon. Speaking of the Pentagon, I have a personal connection, albeit it rather brief, related to that massive building.
You see, back in 1973, after my tour in the Air Force was finished, we moved to Virginia. Shortly thereafter, I procured a job with a contractor which was putting in underground utilities for the upcoming Washington D.C. subway system. Our pipe shop, in which I worked at times, was located a hundred yards from the Pentagon. I often marveled at its size, and couldn't imagine working there. However, the following year, I took the Civil Service test at the Pentagon. As it fell together, I scored well, and I was offered a Civil Service position in the U.S. Air Force Finance and Payments Office; in that very building.
Of course, I was excited about my new opportunity, and was given an appointment to "meet and greet" my future supervisor, and tour the office; which I subsequently did. I recall walking down one of those long hallways, and marveled at the immense size of the building. I cannot begin to tell you the name of my prospective supervisor at this point. (Did I say "prospective?" That particular word gives you some idea of how temporary the position was). You see, after I got home, and began to think about it, I realized that I faced a 100 mile round trip drive on a daily basis. And I just couldn't "see my way clear" to follow through with what had seemed like a marvelous plan. As a result, I called, apologized, and made them aware that whereas someone would, no doubt, be working for them, it wouldn't be me. I can truthfully say, "I was employed by the Pentagon," (but I never worked there).
However, I have surmised that had I accepted this prestigious position, and worked in that position from that moment 'til the turn of the new century, I might have been working in that great five-sided military complex when that aircraft slammed into it. And continuing to pursue hypotheticals, in this case the total K.I.A. from that horrendous attack would have been 2, 997, (rather than 2,996).
Just one personal consideration each year, as we approach the anniversary of that fateful day.
by Bill McDonald, PhD
FORGIVENESS VS. RECONCILIATION
4559
As a former, (and now retired), pastoral counselor, I tended to do something that most counselors don't do. I taught. I required my clients to bring a notebook to their counseling sessions. And I would often say, "Okay, let's stop for a moment. I want to share a teaching with you."
And one teaching I provided my clients, especially those who came alone, and whose spouses had recently committed adultery, sounded like this:
"Reconciliation ALWAYS includes Forgiveness. However, Forgiveness DOES NOT ALWAYS include Reconciliation."
I can only remember virtually insisting one client, among thousands of clients, divorce their spouse. And that particular client's wife was a serial adulterer. The foregoing to say, I respected my clients' right to both forgive and reconcile, as I didn't have anything at stake. However, I felt it was my duty to share the two presenting factors, one which our Lord mentioned, and one which the Apostle Paul mentioned, in which forgiveness was the order of the day, but not necessarily reconciliation.
In Matthew Chapter 5 Jesus speaks about God's allowance for divorce in the case of adultery. In 1st Corinthians Chapter 7 Paul speaks about God's allowance for divorce in the case of desertion. In both cases, adultery and desertion, these passages speak of conditions and not commands; based on the innate grace the innocent party is still willing, and able to invest in the marriage.
But in a larger sense the dynamics of forgiveness and reconciliation applies to ANY relationship and ANY offense committed by one person against another person.
Reconciliation ALWAYS includes Forgiveness. However, Forgiveness DOES NOT ALWAYS include Reconciliation.
And perhaps the overriding variable by which the innocent person decides to both forgive and reconcile is frequency. That is, has the offending party CHOSEN to say, or do something which emotionally, verbally, or physically harms the innocent party on a recurring basis.
by Bill McDonald, PhD
Sunday, August 16, 2026
A MOMENTARY MEETING ON AN ELEVATOR IN SCOTLAND
4558
My wife and I experienced the vacation of a lifetime almost a decade ago. We visited Ireland, N. Ireland and Scotland.
While we were staying in a hotel in Glasgow, Scotland, I had taken the elevator from our third floor room to the lobby for one reason or the other. As I stepped into the elevator to go back to our room, a middle-aged man stepped in with me.
As the elevator ascended, we engaged in a brief conversation.
"Are you an American?"
His accent betrayed him, and I knew he was a Scotsman.
I responded.
"Yes, yes I am."
My newfound friend continued.
"Ah, we owe so much to those brave lads who left your country, and came over during the last world war, and helped us fight."
His words caught me off guard. However, I know there are many in Europe, especially the older ones, who haven't forgotten our sacrifice there.
I nodded, and said something appropriate. And now the elevator door opened, and I bid the fellow a good evening.
As brief as my experience was, I think I will never forget my conversation with that stranger in a small elevator in Scotland.
by Bill McDonald, PhD