I have been on a “guilt trip” today. (Yeah, I have).
I have previously written about a
particular experience which occurred a few years ago. My wife and I decided to
drive over to Cedar Island, a journey of a couple of hours, and spend the night
in one of numerous bungalows on the island.
And since it was my habit to peddle my
bicycle ten miles a day, but since I didn’t bring my bike with me, in the wee
hours of the next morning, while it was still pitch black outside, I “wenta
walkin.”
There is a causeway of sorts which
runs the length of the island, and which includes a couple of bridges. And
since our bungalow was located on the northern tip of the island, and the small
town of Cedar Key was on the southern tip of the island, and there was a mile
or two which separated the two ends of the island, it was convenient for me to
get some exercise in before the sun peeked above the horizon.
In the space of forty-five minutes, I had
journeyed as far as I possibly could, (since I had not then, nor now learned to
walk on water). There were a few restaurants, one or two hotels, and a museum
on this side of the island. (We had eaten at one of the restaurants the day
before, and spent some time in the museum).
After I walked out on a nearby pier,
and “taken a gander” at the bay, I decided it was time to turn around and head
back to our bungalow.
Pt. 2
I
was about halfway back to my destination, as I approached a small bridge. It
was then that I saw it. I say “it” since I am unsure whether the animal was a
male or a female. (However, for the sake of this story I will refer to the
little thing as a “he”).
Twenty
feet prior to reaching the bridge a yellow kitten blocked my pathway. (And he
didn’t seem in any hurry to escape the threatening feet of a large stranger).
As I reached the small cat, I bent over and stroked the non-descript creature.
Suddenly,
the little fella laid his head on my right foot. It was more than obvious that
the precious critter wanted to go with me, as if he realized that his chances
“on the outside” weren’t all that favorable, (but that his chances “on the
inside” would be geometrically better).
Now
I spoke.
“I’m
sorry little one. I can’t take you with me.”
(and)
“I’m
a long way from home, and I just can’t do it.”
Having
stroked the small creature for a couple of minutes, and having said all there
was to say, I stood up and continued my trek back to my bungalow.
And
although I have regretted that I could not offer any more comfort than I did to
the little feline, I have never experienced any guilt about the incident
…
until today.
Did
I say I don’t especially like cats? (Well, I don’t). Did I mention that one of the
major reasons I don’t want one in my house is the necessity of a litter box?
(Well, it is).
However,
in spite of my bias towards dogs, (and prejudice against cats) I am sensitive
to the needs of all animals, and actually pray for all of the stray animals of
the world on a daily basis.
But
to return to my original theme. I was feeling guilty yesterday; guilty about
not picking that little kitten up, walking her to our bungalow, and driving
home with him.
I
can’t account for it. I have no idea where those emotions came from. And as a
rule, I don’t do anything worth feeling guilty about, and I don’t take those
trips on a proverbial time machine.
It
helps to reframe the experience. Reframe – to put a different spin, or
interpretation or outcome on an old story.
I
like to think that someone else came along that morning, or afternoon, or
evening, bent down, stroked the kitten, and did what I didn’t do. He or she
picked up the small creature and walked away with him.
It
helps me to think that way.
by William McDonald, PhD
Afterward
But
to return to my original theme. I was feeling guilty yesterday; guilty about
not picking that little kitten up, walking her to our bungalow, and driving
home with him.
I
can’t account for it. I have no idea where those emotions came from. And as a
rule, I don’t do anything worth feeling guilty about, and I don’t take those
trips on a proverbial time machine.
It
helps to reframe the experience. Reframe – to put a different spin, or
interpretation or outcome on an old story.
I
like to think that someone else came along that morning, or afternoon, or
evening, bent down, stroked the kitten, and did what I didn’t do. He or she
picked up the small creature and walked away with him.
It
helps me to think that way.
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