Monday, January 30, 2023

THE SHOT MUST CHOOSE YOU

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In the movie, “Bagger Vance,” Will Smith, (Bagger) plays what amounts to a Golf Angel. For you see, he has been sent to assist a character played by Matt Damon, (Ranolph Junah) with his golf game.

But it is not just any game, it is THE game of his life, for this former amateur golfer finds himself in a match with perhaps the most notable and adept golfers of his time.

Captain Junah has just come back from “The War to end all wars,” (WWI) and he has come back a changed man. For during one especially ferocious battle, every man in his unit has been killed or severely wounded, and only he has been left unscathed. And as the result of his heroic actions during the battle, the captain has been awarded the Congressional Medal of Honor.

Ranolph’s emotions are raw, and he lacks confidence, and he suffers from what we refer to today as PTSD, but what was referred to in that day and time as “shell shock.” And it was only the result of the pleas of the town’s people, and his former sweetheart, (who is attempting to save the family fortune, and the golf course on which he finds himself) that he has consented to play the game.

Bagger, who has agreed to caddy for the captain, had been giving him pointers throughout the game, but to no avail. But the young man finds himself falling further and further behind the leader.

As Ranolph steps up to take his next shot, Bagger interrupts his swing, and says, “Mr. Junah, there’s only one authentic shot, one that is truly yours, and you can’t choose it.”

The captain is miffed to have had his swing interrupted, and angrily replies, “What do you mean? Of course I can choose my shot. I must choose my shot!”

Bagger smiles a whimsical smile, and responds, “Oh no suh, the shot must choose you.”

Now, in terms of the movie, Bagger’s implication was that for any given hole, on any given course, there is one best club, one best swing, one best solution.

And I think we can learn a valuable lesson from our golf angel’s admonition. The first time I ever viewed the movie, and listened to Bagger’s words, well, it just came to me. There is a valuable spiritual lesson to be gleaned here.

THE SHOT MUST CHOOSE YOU

You see, I am convinced, and scriptures assures us, “My times are in His hands,” (Psalms 31:15) and “The Lord will accomplish that which concerns me,” (Psalms 138:8) and “Before I ever took my first breath, You planned every day of my life.” (Psalms 139:16)

If we believe and embrace the truth of scripture, it is apparent that God knew us by name, and planned all our days, before we were a twinkle, and even before He made the twinkling stars. (And we can be sure that He loves us so much more than those magnificent, astronomical creations.)

Indeed, the shot must choose us. For any given decision, among any set of options which we encounter throughout the course of our lives, there is one best choice, one best action, which has the ultimate capacity to help complete our destiny, and which agrees with our Lord’s perfect plan for us as individuals.

Now, I’m not talking about what loaf of bread we decide to purchase, or whether we check our mail at 1PM or 5AM. No, I’m referring to those crucial, “have to get it right” type of decisions which have the wherewithal to complete our Heavenly Father’s plans for our lives, (or if we are oblivious to the best shot, bring us to ruin.)

Indeed, I believe the shot must choose us, and it is paramount that we get it right. Our very destiny is at stake. I believe it would be pleasing to God that every one of His children pray the following simple prayer, and pray it on a daily basis.

“Oh Father, great Ruler of the universe. You Who knew me before I was formed or ever took my first breath,… let the shot choose me.”

 by William McDonald, PhD

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sunday, January 29, 2023

ISLE OF HOPE. ISLE OF TEARS

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Pt. 1

My wife and I just completed the most glorious vacation of our entire lives.

We have traveled the highways and byways of Ireland, Northern Ireland and Scotland. We have gazed in wonder at the snow-capped mountains, we have marveled at the singular color of the lush grassy pastures; upon which sheep and cattle feed, we have listened to the mournful sound of the bagpipes, and watched Scottish and Irish dancers strut their stuff, we have sampled foods which baffle the taste buds, we have interacted with the loveliest people to grace the planet, we have walked the quaint lanes and admired the most colorful and interesting of flora and fauna.

Dublin and its massive cathedrals and ancient pubs. The stone ruins of a monastic village. Forty shades of green. 19th century remnants of the “Famine Houses.” Sea gulls and ocean waves. A Depression-era farm house. Dingle Bay. Massive castles. The Massacre of the MacDonald Clan. The English Occupation of Ireland, and the cruelty they exercised. The Potato Famine. The “Trouble” of Northern Ireland. Sharing “Danny Boy” and “Amazing Grace” with our amazing group of fellow travelers. The Titanic Museum. Drunken and aimless young adults. Street Beggars. Waterford Crystal. A mythical, but very real island. Greyfriar’s Bobby. Sheep shearing. Edinburgh’s pipers. Family roots.

One of the most poignant, and almost magical moments which I experienced during our trip to the Old Country occurred at a dinner theater in Dublin referred to as “Taylor’s Three Rock.” During the course of the evening my daughter and I were afforded some wonderful food, singing, dancing and comedy. However, as I have previously implied, one moment stood out from all the rest.

Pt. 2

Almost without warning, a video appeared on the overhead screen which featured numerous ancient photographs of 19th century men, women and children, immigrants all, ships, mountains, rivers, ocean waves, the Statue of Liberty, and Ellis Island, the proverbial (and literal) gateway to the golden door which was and continues to be America.

But “what got me,” what really grabbed me and would not let me go, what struck a spine-tingling cord within me, and inspired my innate sensibilities was the music which accompanied the video.

Isle of Hope. Isle of Tears

On the first day of January 1892
They opened Ellis Island and they let the people through
And the first to cross the threshold of that isle of hope and tears
Was Annie Moore from Ireland who was all of 15 years

 

Isle of hope, isle of tears
Isle of freedom, isle of fears
But it’s not the isle you left behind
That isle of hunger, isle of pain
Isle you’ll never see again
But the isle of home is always on your mind

 

I’d never heard the song before, but I can so identify with it. While most or all of my immediate ancestors immigrated to the United States in the 17th, 18th and 19th centuries, before there was an Ellis Island, they came nonetheless; in most cases, leaving all they ever knew and held so dear. Fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, friends, homes and land. And in most cases, those who boarded those old triple-masted ships were left with mental images of what was, and would never be again, and they never returned to the lands from whence they sprang.

As the video and its accompanying melody continued, tears sprang to my eyes, and, subsequently, rolled down my cheeks.

In a little bag, she carried all her past and history
And her dreams for the future in the land of liberty
And courage is the passport when your old world disappears
But there’s no future in the past when you’re 15 years

 

Isle of hope, isle of tears
Isle of freedom, isle of fears
But it’s not the isle you left behind
That isle of hunger, isle of pain
Isle you’ll never see again
But the isle of home is always on your mind

 

Pt. 3

 

I, as was my father before me, am an amateur genealogist, and I love and care deeply for those who have gone on before; though all they left to us were a few sundry bits of information, and fading celluloid photographs. There was a time when they lived, and moved and breathed and loved. They were here, and we were not. And we owe them our very existence, and our own ability to live and breathe and move, as they did before us. And having dared fate, braved the elements, and stared down fear, every man, woman and child among them grasped their providential destinies, and endured ‘til the end.

 

My 3x great Grandfather Isham McDonald, born in Ireland of Scottish parents, who left it all behind, including his dear papa and mama, “set up shop” in South Carolina, and served in the fledgling Continental Army throughout the American Revolution.

 

My 3x great Grandmother Mary Elizabeth Stewart, born on the Isle of Skye, Scotland in the 17th century, who as a young lass dared journey to a place she knew little or nothing about, and which lay across four thousand miles of turbulent ocean. Never to return to the island of her birth, nor to friends and family whom she held so dear. And on those rough-hewn wooden docks, she left a hundred kisses on their cheeks.

 

My 9x great Grandfather Daniel Mackhoe, of Edinburgh, a Jacobite; one of Bonnie Prince Charlie’s men. Old Dan fought at the Battle of Dunbar, and having been taken prisoner by the British was led on a forced march to a distant stockade; during which time thousands of his compatriots died. Ultimately, my ancient Grandfather was involuntary consigned to the ship, “John and Sara” and adopted, and was adopted by the most bless-ed country which ever graced this planet.

 

When they closed down Ellis Island in 1943
17 million people had come there for sanctuary
And in springtime when I came here and I stepped onto its piers
I thought of how it must have been when you’re 15 years

 

Isle of hope, isle of tears
Isle of freedom, isle of fears
But it’s not the isle you left behind
That isle of hunger, isle of pain
Isle you’ll never see again

 


But the isle of home is always on your mind

But the isle of home is always on your mind

 

Pt. 4

I brought up the “Celtic Woman” version of, “Isle of Hope. Isle of Tears” today, and without notice tears sprang to my eyes, and I could not contain the sobs which rose in my throat! My wife was standing nearby and uttered an “ahhhh,” and bent down to hug me. And before she was close enough to extend her sympathetic arms, my little pooch drew near, and gazed at me like she’d lost her dearest friend. She just knew I was experiencing one of the most singular moments of my life.

While we were in Ireland, and Northern Ireland and Scotland my mind was taken up with my known and unknown grandfathers and grandmothers, as it never was before.

I left a tribute to each of them in the form of a simple note on the face of a dollar bill; which recounted their names and lives, and whatever else to which I was privy; along with my name and relationship to them.

And with this, I secreted the bill beneath a desk, or bureau, or bedstead in the room to which we were assigned, and in the applicable country with which my forefathers were most and best acquainted.

And whereas, I left a piece of my heart, and a paltry bit of cash behind, my dear grandfathers and grandmothers surrendered all their heart, and the losses they sustained cannot be calculated.

And whereas, these never returned to the peoples and homes and lands they knew and loved so well, I think, in essence, I have returned in their place.

Isle of hope, isle of tears
Isle of freedom, isle of fears
But it’s not the isle you left behind
That isle of hunger, isle of pain
Isle you’ll never see again

 


But the isle of home is always on your mind

But the isle of home is always on your mind


by William McDonald, PhD

SEEING THE WORLD IN BLACK & WHITE

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It was August of 1992, and our local National Guard unit had been mobilized to assist the citizens of Dade County. As a result of Andrew, a Category five level hurricane, thousands of dwellings and businesses were savagely demolished.

 

In a newspaper article I wrote later, I refer to the utter lack of color which met my eye wherever I turned. Every building, and I mean every building, for twenty miles in any direction displayed some degree of damage, and a majority were reduced to little more than rubble. And oddly enough, something that is foreign to us in Florida, every tree and every bush was completely stripped of their leaves and flowers.

 

During the forty days I served in Miami, I began to experience an unusual amount of fatigue, and after our unit was deactivated, three weeks elapsed before I felt like my old self.

 

It was only later that it occurred to me that much of the apparent tiredness and lack of energy was the result of sensory deprivation, since during those dawn to dusk days in Homestead, Florida my vision was limited to white, black and gray, and an almost total lack of the color green.

 

As human beings, we are meant to see in color. Having ever viewed the world in color, our brains are not equipped to experience life in black and white.

by William McDonald, PhD

WILD VIOLETS FOR BUDDY

                                                                                                

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Pt. 1

As I was preparing to write this story, (and as I often do) I went to the internet, and brought up a series of articles related to my topic.

In this case wild violets.

And as I googled the subject of my quest, the first item at the top of the list was,

“How to get rid of wild violets in your yard.”

And I thought,

“Why would I want to get rid of them?”

(and)

“I happen to like them.”

(and)

“I happen to like them a lot.”

I mean, I purposely mow around a 2x2 foot clump of the little things in my back yard.

Of course, as you might expect, there’s more to the story, and for anyone who is a fan of my blogs, you may remember my having written about the topic before.

Yesterday, as I stepped outside to survey my woodsy quarter acre, I glanced to my right and noticed a tiny clump of lovely wild violets were in bloom. Twelve or fifteen of the small purple blossoms greeted my eyes; held up by rich green leafy shoots.

And, as always, I paused to reflect on a precious little Shih Tzu named, ‘Buddy’ which I was privileged to know and love for the space of a decade.

And as I have inferred in the past, when she left us, (Yes, ‘Buddy’ was a her) I installed a circular decorative tile on this spot to commemorate her.

For it was here that our precious pooch so often resorted to “take in the rays.”

Pt. 2

Perhaps I have chosen to “read more into it,” but I am convinced that the proximity of the wild violets to the place Buddy loved the best is no coincidence or mistake. I believe it was an “on purpose” sorta thing which has its roots with Providence, and was (drum roll) planned before the earth was breathed into being.

I know that’s “saying a lot” and I realize it’s a lot to take in, but I’m convinced that Buddy was simply worth it, and that our Lord was thinking of her

…before He made the worlds.

I mean, I’ve written about my little Buddy before, and without going into great detail again suffice it to say that I think my precious pooch fulfilled her mission on this earth; whereas many human beings never do.

There was a time when her incessant barking caused a would-be burglar to flee. There was a time when she refused to leave my daughter’s side when she was grieving the loss of a marriage. There was a time when she followed my wife around the house, ‘til she submitted to a physical exam by which a malignant tumor was detected early, and she has been allowed to live out a long and productive life.

Yes, my Buddy was worth it, and I think our Lord agreed with me before I ever knew the bless-ed creature.

There is a particular verse in the Book of Psalms which provides some evidence of the Creator’s love and affirmation for both his human and animal creations, and His promise that I will see my Buddy again one day.

Your righteousness is like the highest mountains, your justice like the great deep. You, LORD, preserve both people and animals. (Psalm 36:6)

Afterward

No, I don’t believe the presence of those lovely wild violets, next to that circular decorative tile in my backyard, is a coincidence or mistake. I will always think of this place as a Providential tribute to one of His wonderful little creations named Buddy.

I like to think of that wild, uncultivated patch of purple blossoms as God’s own memorial for a life well lived, and for a creature He loved more than I ever could.

by William McDonald, PhD

COME OUT OF THE BAG

 3998

Pt. 1

There is an unusual verse of scripture in the New Testament Book of Romans:

“O, wretched man that I am. Who will deliver me from the body of this death?” (Romans 7:24)

But grant me permission to return to this verse, and its little-known meaning a little later.

A reservist friend of mine served in the Regular Army during the Vietnam War. He was and is a wonderful man. He emulates his own motto in every respect; “Know your stuff, (well that’s not exactly the word he used). Take care of your people. Be a Man.”

Staff Sergeant ‘Cliff Landon’ served in a very singular and generally unpleasant position. He was assigned as an intake supervisor with the Army Casualties Team. Cliff performed the initial processing which expedited shipment of our deceased soldiers, sailors, airmen and marines back to the United States.

He routinely unzipped body bag after body bag, orange deodorant spray in one hand, and a wooden baton in the other hand.

Oft times, military casualties lay on the field of their labor for days at a time. And “vermin” (to characterize it politely) would often hitch a ride in the body bags, having been scooped up with the deceased military man; (thus the need for the club).

As the months rolled by, one day was very much like another, and Sergeant Cliff became almost immune to the sights and smells of his gruesome profession. And so, it was until that one particular day…

Pt. 2

The hardened soldier bent to unzip another bag; among the dozens which covered the hanger floor. It was then he noticed a slight movement, and he raised the club above his head. Zip went the bag, and at that instant something happened which never occurred in all his months in this gruesome vocation.

 “Whew. It’s hot in here!”

 Well, my dear readers, I assure you Sergeant Morton almost “lost it.”

“We have a live one. We have a live one!!!” my friend screamed. From somewhere in the distance medics came running, and the “living corpse” was rushed to a nearby operating theatre.

And rather than keep you in suspense, I can tell you that young soldier was spared, and is alive and well today. Granted, he came away from the experience with only one arm, and one leg, but he will tell you how fortunate he is to still be among “the land of the living.”

A footnote to this story.

Sergeant Landon was, ultimately, released from active duty, and immediately registered at a local community college. It was the first day of the semester, and he reported to a Room 203, and sat down. First course. First semester. First year.

Suddenly, Cliff heard someone wheel in behind him, and turned to look.

To his amazement he recognized a very familiar face, and the body below it. A man with one arm and one leg. The smiling fellow managed to wheel himself up to our hero, and the reunion was nothing short of Outstanding.

Pt. 3

Interestingly enough, (at least to me) the earlier passage of scripture is eerily similar to the predicament of the poor soldier in the body bag.

Let me refresh it for you.

“O, wretched man that I am. Who will deliver me from the body of this death?”

I love the hidden implications of various passages of scripture; verses which we are prone to “run right by,” but which spoke volumes to believers of the first century church.

Allow me to characterize the meaning of this scripture.

During the time of Christ, the Roman government used a primary form of execution. Crucifixion. However, this wasn’t the only method by which a condemned criminal was put to death. (And after I summarize this secondary method, I think any one of us would have begged to be hung on a cross).

For you see, the foregoing scripture refers to is this particular method of ancient execution.

It seems that under this gruesome regimen, …a dead body was tied securely to a condemned prisoner. And under penalty of death, no man was permitted to remove it from him. And thus, this condemned criminal was forced to eat, drink and sleep with that awful burden on his back. And, (as you might easily imagine) as that terrible organic weight on his back putrefied, the prisoner grew progressively sicker, and, ultimately, died.

“Who, indeed, shall deliver me?”

Obviously, the Apostle Paul is using a powerful illusion of an actual practice here.

In the same way that any man would be required to pay the ultimate penalty for the slightest attempt to release the condemned criminal, this (and the following verse of scripture) serve as a witness that you and I were condemned to die a spiritual death, and suffer the eternal penalty, when Christ Jesus volunteered to wrest that dead body of sin from our back, and set us free; but as a result was forced to lay down His life in exchange for our own.

Pt. 4

I can tell you, I am struck with the similarities between the two stories, one ancient, and one current; which I have related here.

I have often shared the story of Sergeant Cliff and the unfortunate soldier in the body bag. This tale has had an impact on countless people over the years. Of course, it’s not enough to merely tell the story. It is imperative that my readers understand the spiritual interpretation I have assigned to the story.

Our poor “corpse” was shut off in that dark, airless bag. How long he lay there is still a mystery. Somehow, this singular soul existed in a coma-like state; devoid of human contact.

But suddenly, he found himself resurrected; not unlike Lazarus of old! And can there be any doubt that the good sergeant represents the figurative Christ figure who unzips the dark enclosure which confines the poor man, and cries out,

“Come out of the bag!”

I deal with the dregs of humanity, those who suffer from addictions to alcohol and substances, clients who exhibit various psychological maladies, as well as ‘normal folks’ who struggle with unforgiveness, hurtful memories, and failed relationships; those who are figuratively closed up in a body bag, enveloped by darkness, deprived of human affection, and deprived of oxygen.

 

Come out now! Don’t hesitate another moment. You don’t belong there. There are those among us who will help you find your way out of the bag! But you must cooperate. You must be willing. Only decay and airlessness reside therein. Rise out of that awful place. Come out of the bag!

by William McDonald, PhD

DYING TO SELF

 3997

When you are forgotten, neglected, or purposely set at naught, and you don't sting or hurt with the oversight, but your heart is happy being counted worthy to suffer for Christ;

That is dying to self.

 

When your good is evil spoken of, when your wishes are crossed, your advice disregarded, your opinion ridiculed, and you refuse to let anger rise in your heart or even defend yourself, but take it all in patient, loving silence;

 

That is dying to self.

 

When you lovingly and patiently bear any disorder, any irregularity, any annoyance; when you can stand face to face with waste, folly, extravagance, spiritual insensibility, and endure it as Jesus did;

 

That is dying to self.

 

When you are content with any food, and offering, any raiment, any climate, any society, any solitude, any interruption by the will of God;

 

That is dying to self.

 

When you never care to refer to yourself in conversation or record your own good works or itch after commendation, when you can truly love to be unknown;

 

That is dying to self.

 

When you can see your brother prosper and have his needs met, and can honestly rejoice with him in spirit and feel no envy, nor question God, while your own needs are far greater and you are in desperate circumstances;

 

That is dying to self.

 

When you can receive correction and reproof from one of less stature than yourself and can humbly submit, inwardly as well as outwardly, finding no rebellion or resentment rising up within your heart;

 

That is dying to self.

 Author Unknown 

 

SAY NOT MY SOUL

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Say not, my soul, “From whence
Can God relieve my care'
Remember that Omnipotence
Hath servants everywhere.
His help is always sure,
His methods seldom guessed;
Surprise will give it zest.
Delay will make our pleasure pure;
His wisdom is sublime,
His heart profoundly kind;
God never is before His time,
And never is behind.
Hast thou assumed a load
Which none will bear with thee'
And art thou bearing it for God,
And shall He fail to see'
- J. J. Lynch

AN INTERVIEW WITH LAURA HILLENBRAND

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Laura Hillenbrand, the author of “Seabiscuit,” gave an interview sometime after her book was written, and had sailed to the top of the New York Times Best Seller List. I will never forget the book, or the interview. I have long since misplaced my copy of the book, and I haven’t been able to locate the portion of the interview which contains the following account. As a result, it has been necessary for me to rewrite a summary of her words from memory in order to share the following with you tonight.

It seems that when Laura Hillenbrand was a little girl she happened to be at the neighborhood pool one day, the same activity I also used to enjoy. Well, after she had swam awhile, a thunderstorm arose, and the majority of the children ran for cover into a screened-in porch; adjacent to the pool. As the kids sat bare-legged on the floor, a well-meaning young man, a lifeguard, offered to read the children a poem; not just any poem, but one of the longest, and most poignant poems of all time, “The Rime of the Ancient Mariner.” You can imagine that many of the children opted to collect their things, and head off for home, in spite of the light rain and thunder. But Laura, and a few of her young companions remained, and were soon engrossed in the young man’s grisly tale.

The lifeguard read stanza after stanza of the poem, and the more he read, the more horrendous and awe-inspiring were the words. The rain fell in droves now, and it seemed to Laura that the crack of lightning, and the boom of thunder, served to accent the dark adjectives which so easily rolled off the young man’s lips.

You see, “The Rime of the Ancient Mariner” recounts the fictional voyage of a couple hundred unfortunate sailors on an old sailing ship. Not so different from Paul’s account in the Book of Acts, the ancient vessel is overcome by an intense storm, but in this case, there is a significant loss of life.

As the young fellow finished reading the poem, and put down the book, the children seemed to sit silently for a brief moment, as if to transcend the hundred, or so stanzas which had so transfixed them. And then it was time to head home.

Laura picked up her towel, and began the short walk to her house. In spite of the depth and darkness of the subject matter, this young girl who left shallow footprints on that old dirt road which took her home, was suddenly very unlike the child who had sat down cross-legged on that cold tile floor. Her very soul thrilled within her to realize, even at this young age, what she wished to do with her life; what she had to do with her life. As surely as the account of lightning in the old poem mirrored the actual lightning which enveloped the afternoon sky, Laura was filled to overflowing with insight. She would become an author.

And the world renown author commented at the end of this particular segment of the interview, “I never knew the name of that young man who selflessly offered to read to a few young children on a little porch by a neighborhood pool, but what he did for me that day, though of course he had no way of knowing, the time and topic he shared with me that day, well, it made all the difference in my life. I would not, could not, have been the same person I am today. My life would not have turned out as it has, without the momentary contribution of that selfless young man.”

 As retold by William McDonald, PhD

 


EMPTY CHAIRS

                                                                                


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Empty chairs

Two empty chairs

Oh, they have been empty in the past. Anytime someone happened not to be sitting in them.

But this time is different.

For you see, they will never be occupied again; at least not by the original two who once filled them up.

I can still see my parents, Henry and Erma, seated in those matching recliners. Reading newspapers, or perhaps a National Geographic, or simply starring out onto their mobile home-side pond.

My dad loved that chair, or better put he loved what that chair afforded him.

Rest and relaxation. Information. For as I have implied, he gleaned his latest knowledge of the world here, as the result of television, or a favorite magazine. Discovery. For so often he would lift those ever-present binoculars, and gaze upon one or the other of “his” birds. And the gators which lolled their lives away upon the sandy beach below.

More than once, many times more than once, I showed up, unannounced, and invaded his “inner sanctum;” only to discover him in the midst of an ethereal sleep. Which, as with us all, is prophetic of that slumber which must overtake each of us one day.

And always, and without fail, I would exclaim,

“Wake up, Daddy. They’ll be plenty of time for sleeping!”

And he would rouse himself; if only long enough to acknowledge my presence, and e’er too many moments elapsed

…well, you guessed it.

And my mother.

I think she occupied her matching recliner, more often than not, for the sake of a selfish agenda.

To simply dwell in the presence of the one to whom she had pledged herself; some six decades hence. For it was here that she experienced and enjoyed the presence of the man who had, long since, relinquished activity in favor of the sedentary. Oh, mama put up a good show of doing one thing or another, as she occupied her matching chair. But I think, I think, it was all about my dad. And the singleness of what took two to complete.

And now. Now the chairs are empty.

My wife has a photograph of her parents. It was taken at the lake home of their son. And in that poignant picture Doc and Ruby may be seen seated on the lakeside porch, facing one another, and engaged in a private conversation; known and meant only for themselves.

I can picture my own parents engaged in a similar exchange. But that one set of chairs have been exchanged for another. What the years stole from them has been restored, and in good measure.

Empty chairs. Not some cheap montage of wood and metal and fabric. But an almost spiritual place.

My father occupied his chair when, after his stroke and my mother’s subsequent inability to care for him, I made him aware it was time to submit himself to a nursing facility.

My mother sat in hers the last time we took her home for lunch, and the final occasion on which she saw her sisters; having been placed in that same facility.

It was in this room, and in these chairs my parents lived the most and best of their waning years. It was here that they did the things people do as they scratched out what joy still remained to them in their declining years. It was here from which they entertained family and friends, complained about the weather, boasted of a new great grandchild, worried for the fate of the nation, laughed about a childhood picture, remembered something from their youth, memorialized a lost comrade; expressed some hope for our futures.

It was from these chairs they spoke and laughed and lived and loved, and gleaned from the gradually shrinking world around them.

Empty Chairs.

Strange, how rich and full and almost complete an empty chair may seem.

 by William McDonald, PhD

 

 

 

 

 

 

CROSSING JORDAN

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My sister forwarded a photo of my dad to me today; one which I don’t recall seeing before.

The picture depicts my dad at the age of perhaps 65 or 70; 15 to 20 years before our Lord called him home to Glory. When I asked her, Linda informed me that the photograph was snapped in Robbinsville, NC; along a river where my parents had purchased a cabin. It seems my dad was in the process of building a dock, though no structure, whatsoever, can be seen.

In the picture Daddy is wearing the most bedraggled clothes I have ever seen him wear. His jeans are replete with holes, and stains, and his upper body is clothed in a dirty t-shirt. In spite of the condition of his clothing, my father appears to be staring directly into the camera lens, wearing a smile which might easily compete with the sun, and with one hand raised in greeting, (or farewell).

Interestingly enough, as recently as I came into possession of this unique picture, it has become my all-time favorite of my dad.

And I think I like it so much because it so well characterizes the journey we know as life and death.

I think the river represents the threshold between this life and the next. That both literal and proverbial river we call Jordan.

My father’s torn and dirty clothing speaks to the trials, troubles and turmoil of life, and the manner in which it inflicts pain and suffering on all of us.

Whereas, the exuberant smile, and raised hand is all about the conclusion of such momentary symptoms, the joy which awaits the redeemed, and that one final opportunity to bid a fond “fare thee well,” but not goodbye.

And if I could select one scripture to accompany the photo, I think I might affix the following caption:

“For I reckon that the sufferings of this present life are not worthy to be compared to the glory which shall be revealed in us.” (Romans 8:18)

by William McDonald, PhD

HAVE I EARNED IT?

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(Reposted)

Pt. 1

Today is the 73rd anniversary of the storming of the beaches at Normandy.

D-Day.

There is no measure of gratitude with which to thank the brave boys (and they were boys) who fought and died there. The youngest of the few survivors who are still with us, (for they are dying at the rate of 1500 a day) have reached the ninth decade of their lives.

I will never forget the first time I saw, “Saving Private Ryan.”

As the movie concluded, I could hear muffled sobs throughout the auditorium. And as my wife, and I walked out of the double doors of the theater, I noticed several old men wiping away tears. No doubt, some of them “had been there and done that.”

In one especially poignant scene “Captain Miller” (Tom Hanks) has been mortally wounded and in his fading moments, he summons “Private Ryan” (Matt Damon) to his side, and whispers in his ear.

“Earn it. Earn it.”

The implication is clear. The captain and his men have scoured occupied France, in order to find the lowly enlisted man, and send him home to his mother; given that several of his brothers had been killed in action. And in the process, not only Captain Miller, but some of his men had paid the last full measure of devotion; in their attempt to locate him.

As the movie ends, we see the aging Private Ryan walking through the cemetery at Normandy with several members of his family. Reaching Captain Miller’s gravesite, he turns to his wife, and asks,

“Have I been a good man? Have I lived a good life? Have I earned it?”

She pauses, and with a momentary look of disbelief registering on her face, she responds in the affirmative.

Pt. 2

While Captain Miller’s and Private Ryan’s stories are fictional, each and every young soldier, sailor, airman and marine, who fought in every war in which this country has ever been involved, have possessed their own singular story.

I once wrote an article in which I characterized the events of D-Day. But I think my personal rendition could not possibly describe the events of that day any better than the opening scene from “Saving Private Ryan.” I can tell you that I have never witnessed such a re-creation of such carnage. And in respect for the sensitivity for my reader, suffice it to say two words would adequately sum it all up. Slaughter House.

I recently came across a photo montage, with a single caption, which depicted an overhead seaside photo of the invasion of Normandy, June 6, 1944, along side a modern-day photo of one of America’s beaches; with the requisite sun bathers and umbrellas.

The caption?

“Their day at the beach made your day at the beach possible.”

There is a singular video segment which appears in virtually every documentary you will ever see relating to the events at Normandy. The ten second film clip zeroes in on four soldiers as they storm the beach, and running as fast as their rifles and packs allow them towards the Nazi-occupied cliffs in the distance.

Suddenly the soldier on the left and his comrade on the right fall, quite obviously the target of a German machine gun; while the two men in the middle continue their quest for a safe place to shield themselves from the punishing hail of bullets raining down upon them.

I have often thought of those two men who fell on the beach that day; two among thousands who fell. And yet, these unfortunate soldiers were filmed in the very act.

I would love to know their names, their units, the nature of their wounds; whether they succumbed to their injuries. And if not, what kind of life they returned to at the end of the war.

Pt. 3

As I previously inferred, I once wrote a tribute to those brave men who suffered and, in too many cases, died on the field of their labor.

I have included it, below.

 

A soft breeze stirs the sea grass, and the gulls float listlessly above the azure waters of Normandy. The guns are silent, and the German bunkers collapse under the weight of more than half a century. The breeze freshens a bit, and the short, tended grass above the bluffs mimics the rolling of nearby waves.

 

Viewed from above, the rolling green grass seems dusted with snow. But Summer is upon the land, and our snowflakes do not melt. Row upon row of white stone crosses stand where the jackboot tread and Rommel smiled. Sentinels ever, they whisper, “Never again, but if so, our sons will yet defy the enemy.”

 

We gaze into their eyes, their portraits fading now, and yellow about the edges. Their features so young, so sharp, so vibrant. Their lips full of a healthy pride. Their eyes speak volumes. A million unfinished dreams and unspoken destinies.

 

And like gladiators of old, they steel their spirits and set forth into the unknown. A young private asks his sergeant, “How many will not come back?” The older man responds, “Many, most… I don’t know.” A tear forms in the young man’s eyes, and the lump in his throat betrays his fear. Other men smile, as if to say, “It won’t be me. I’m coming out of this. I’m going home when this is over.”

 

The waves are large, and the gale is brisk. The sea is spread thick with ships, and boats and landing craft of every description, bobbing like bottles in a bathtub.

 

And we see them as they make their way to sandy beaches. Beaches with code names like Utah, Omaha, Gold, Sword and Juno. Thirty-five amphibious tanks are dispatched into the cold surf. Thirty-two begin to sink, their desperate crewmen clamoring to get out of the turrets. Many drown. Others, having escaped certain death, flounder in deep waters now, their ammo and packs weighing them down. Calling, crying for help, they beg crewmen in other craft to pick them up. But more often than not, they are ignored. The urgency of the mission is foremost. As they begin to perish anguish breaks within the bosoms of those who watch, those who cannot respond.

 

A landing craft finds the sandy bottom, and the huge door falls flat forward. Thirty men scramble to reach shallow water, and their objective. And before the sound of gunfire can reach their ears, or any understanding of their fate dawns upon them, they lie dead. For these thirty, mission complete, mission over.

 

Oh, the glider troops. The sky is full of them. Loosed from mother planes, these frail craft ride the winds, and winds and terrain offer these men different fates. For some crash violently against cities and trees and earth, and all on board are lost. Others display the art of controlled crashes, upright at least, a broken shoulder here, a twisted ankle there.

 

The Rangers. There can be none like them. For they begin to climb, treacherous enough without added difficulties. They are greeted with all the trouble of a plan gone bad. Hot bullets rain down upon their hapless bodies. Live grenades shower the rocks around them.

 

And some reach the summit. And some win the prize.

 

And some come again to walk the beaches. To smell the salt water. To read inscriptions on stark stone crosses. To live that day anew. To weep, unashamed among a thousand other men who are doing the same.

 

We have come to an anniversary of that day. D-Day. A day that is still living in the hearts and minds of the survivors. They cannot forget. They bid a new generation to remember. To remember that young, shiny-eyed trooper who ran across the beach, only to fall, and to understand in his last mortal moment that Normandy’s sand had become the waning sands of his own hourglass.

 

To remember the commitment of such a one as this. The paratrooper who might have stayed down after the first bullet grazed his forehead. But such a one as this who stood, and fought and fell again, never more to rise.

 

The soft breeze stirs the waters of Normandy. The waves wash easily across the clean, white sand. Though the blood, and footprints of just men have been cleansed by the whelming flood of water, their stone crosses stand sentinel, just above the cliffs, just beyond the field of their labor.

 

They gave their tomorrows for our todays.

 

I think it behooves us, the recipients of such a great sacrificial endeavor, to pause on this day, and days like it,

 

and to ask ourselves,

 

…Have I earned it?

by William McDonald, PhD

Saturday, January 28, 2023

EITHER WAY, I WIN

                                                                                


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I was watching a Gaither TV special today. And as so often is the case, the one hour segment featured a well-known Christian vocalist, duo or quartet.

Today, the featured (prerecorded) guests were Joey and Rory Feek, a husband and wife duo. The video in which they appeared today is about ten years old, and a great deal has happened in their lives since then, as you may know.

When this particular program was recorded, Joey had been experiencing cervical and colon cancer, and her prognosis was less than favorable. In spite of this awful development, Joey and Rory seemed upbeat, though during the interview with Bill Gaither the dear lady wiped tears from her eyes.

In between songs, Joey spoke of what at that time was a “iffy, it could go either way” diagnosis, and an encounter she had with another patient at a local clinic.

“Not long ago I was having tests done, and the lady sitting near me, who recognized me and who was also battling cancer, asked me a question.”

‘Why are you always smiling, and how do you keep going when you are dealing with such a vicious diagnosis?’

“Well, not one to miss an opportunity, I looked over at her, and replied,”

‘Don’t you see? If I am allowed to stay here awhile, I win! If God takes me home, I win! Either way, I win!’

The day after the Gaither interview with Joey and Rory was filmed, Joey learned that the chemotherapy was not working. She went home to die.

Joey and Rory released videos of her last couple of months. Joey had lost all her hair, she was frail, and confined to her bed. Her morphine drip had to be quadrupled to give her some measure of relief.

Not long thereafter, Joey went on to her rightful reward. As believers we are not guaranteed ceaseless joy on earth, nor length of years. Joey realized that, at best, life is momentary. We cannot stay here. I think there is a great deal of wisdom in the words this dear lady shared with that other patient, and, subsequently, her listening audience.

‘Don’t you see? If I am allowed to stay here awhile, I win! If God takes me home, I win! Either way, I win!’

by William McDonald, PhD

Thursday, January 26, 2023

MY FRIEND PAUL

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I have known Paul Puckett, former Minister of Music for the First Baptist Church of Bartow, from a distance for over the course of half a century. My choral group performed “The Messiah” in his church throughout my high school years.

 

Paul and Martha Puckett’s daughters, Elaine and Beth, were a couple of years ahead of me, and one behind me; respectively speaking. Sadly, Beth left us prior to graduation; the result of an automobile accident. And Elaine passed away in the last couple of years. Paul Jr., whom I have never had the privilege of meeting, makes his residence on the west coast of Florida.

 

But returning to the object of my story, it was only in the past several months that I took the opportunity to meet Paul face to face, and speak to him about a subject which had occupied my thoughts for quite some time.

 

For you see, Paul, a wonderful minister of the Gospel, has known more pain than anyone deserves in several lifetimes. Not only did his dear daughters pre-decease him, but his wife, Martha, succumbed to cancer a couple of decades ago.

 

But not before completing a book about her nuclear family, as well as her adult life with Paul and the children.

 

As I sat down with the 92 year old Paul, I noticed how fit he seemed for one who had spent over 9 decades on this planet. And how cognitively cognizant and conversational he was.

 

After we had “shot the breeze” about the weather, his health, my having known his daughters, and his having known my father, I popped the question.

 

“Uh, Mr. Puckett, would you mind if I borrowed a copy of your wife’s book? I’ve been wanting to read it for quite some time.”

 

To which my old found/new found friend replied,

 

“Well, you know I had a couple hundred copies printed a long time ago, and I’m down to two now. A paperback and a loose leaf copy.”

 

What Paul said next surprised me a bit, (but as I thought about it later, his tactics made a bit more sense than heretofore).

 

“Uh, Royce I suppose I could loan you the paperback, but would you mind writing your home address and phone number on this piece of paper? You know. Just in case I need to check on how you’re coming along with the book.”

 

As a result, I willingly obliged my host, and handed the paper back to him.

 

And with this Paul strolled to his bookcase and pulled out a “dog-eared” copy of Martha Puckett’s, “Prunes, Pride and Vinegar Pie,” and tenderly handed it to me.

 

With this, I thanked Mr. Puckett and he saw me to the door.

 

I drove home, and immediately began reading the book, and finished it in “break-neck” time.

 

However, I hadn’t yet divulged a secondary reason for my visit.

 

For you see I intended to scan each and every page of the small volume, and transfer it to a cd.

 

Having finished the book and laid the first page on my scanner it soon became obvious that any attempt to commit the entire work to my Word file, and ultimately to a cd might seriously compromise the integrity of the fragile pages.

 

Thus, a few days later I retraced my route and knocked on Paul’s front door. He opened it to me, and once again I “pulled up a chair and sat awhile.”

 

And it was about this time I broached the subject of my second visit.

 

“Paul, if you’d loan me that loose leaf copy of Martha’s book I’d be happy to scan it, and put the finished work on a cd. This would be a great adjunct to your wife’s efforts, and it would allow you to pass her volume down through the generations of your family.”

 

Having returned the paperback, and proven my trustworthiness, this time my friend didn’t hesitate.

 

“Well, of course. That would be very nice of you, Royce.”

 

And as before, he stepped to his bookcase, refiled the paperback, and retrieved the loose leaf version of his wife’s book.

 

I can tell you my self-styled project went off without a hitch. Two for him and one for me.

 

And having completed my task, I “christened” the cassette disk with a circular label bearing the title of the book, its author, and a photograph of the Puckett family.

 

Of course, Mr. Puckett was thrilled with the outcome, and thanked me for my assistance.

 

Having just departed the great City of Bartow today, Paul’s hometown, as well as my own, I looked over at my wife and said,

 

“You know, for no particular reason I was thinking of Paul Puckett today. Given the opportunity I could see myself hanging out with him from time to time. He’s so friendly, and such an interesting man. As healthy as he seems to be, why, he may live to be a hundred!”

 

Without too many additional words exchanged between us, Jean and I continued our short trek home, dismounted our old Nissan Altima, and walked in the door of our house. Par for the course, I immediately sat down at my computer, and pulled up my social media page.

 

Only to discover a post from a family member

 

… announcing the death of his beloved relative, Paul Puckett; having stepped into the presence of His beloved Savior only this morning.

 

I will miss my friend, Paul.

 by William McDonald, PhD