A loyal American cannot help but praise and give thanks to the 13 brave American servicemen and servicewomen who gave the last full measure of devotion recently in Afghanistan. The military does the bidding of the President of the United States, right or wrong, rain, hail, snow or storm.
Sunday, August 29, 2021
BETRAYING OUR FRIENDS IN AFGHANISTAN
Saturday, August 28, 2021
HIS UNSEEN PRESENCE
I have previously written several blogs related to some pretty
bizarre experiences I have had on my daily, (well, nightly) 10 mile bicycle
excursions.
Anything and everything from the apparent kidnapping of a
woman by a man driving a semi-truck to an angel walking down a nearby sidewalk
to a woman standing in ornamental garden of a bank with her dog, and singing
the most ethereal song ever sung this side of ‘Kingdom Come’ to an emaciated
mini-Doberman tied to a light post to a kitten sitting on the three foot tall
concrete base of a similar light post to a strange guy in a front yard who,
when he saw me, ducked behind a tree to a vagrant who appeared out of nowhere
and asked for a cigarette, (and was quickly informed that yours truly didn’t
smoke) to a young fellow with a cane who claimed to have been just released
from the county jail, some ten miles distant, and doing his best to navigate
his way home; (whom I subsequently picked up, and drove to his house having
first taken my bicycle home, and retrieved my automobile).
I have long since quit pedaling a bicycle. It simply wasn’t
good for my health. You see, I had gone over the handlebars five times over the
course of a few years, so I decided to retire the contraption.
But not to be defeated,… well, allow me to postpone my train
of thought.
Pt. 2
But allow me to keep you in suspense a bit longer. For I
believe a bit of background color would be helpful to expand on my most recent
experience(s).
As my wife and I drove towards our local “Chili’s” to “grab a
bite” today, I began to tell her about the circumstances I have not yet related
to you. After pulling into the parking lot, we stepped out of the car, and the
pungent scent of cigarette smoke assaulted our lungs. I can tell you that I
have rarely, if ever, smelled such an amazingly powerful, and lingering odor.
Of course, we immediately looked east, west, north and south to determine the
source of the “ambience.” But though we noticed a couple of cars to our left
and right, there was not a biped (or a quadruped for that matter) in sight.
A few hours later, and after we had returned home, I had just
been across the street talking to my neighbor. Suddenly, my wife stepped out
the front door holding my cell phone. She held it up, and as a result I told
Frank that I needed to go. Walking across our cul-de-sac, and halfway across my
yard, I suddenly detected the scent of perfume. Again, I looked around my
immediate environment, and saw what I had seen hundreds of times; rose bushes
on my right, and a palm tree on my left; (neither of which were capable of
emitting this type of fragrance).
It seemed odd that I had been exposed to two very similar
experiences, but very different fragrances, and without any visible origin, in
one day.
Pt. 3
Were you and I sitting across from one another I would say,
“Thank you for your patience” (and) “I hope my previous illustrations provide a
bit more understanding and clarity than you might otherwise have gleaned from
what I am about to share with you.”
It would be helpful if I told you that after landing five
perfect “Peter Pans” on the asphalt over the course of three or four years, I
traded in my bicycle for the equipment with which I was born; one very adequate
leg, and one which had suffered a melanoma, and resulting surgery, and an ankle
which was full of metal; the result of a short fall off a long ladder.
I had been walking in my neighborhood and two or three other
adjacent neighborhoods for a couple of years. But whereas, I generally pedaled
each morning from 4am-5am, I have made a practice of walking out the door on my
daily trek around 5am, and returning before the sun lit the horizon.
The sameness of my exercise routine diametrically changed
about a month ago.
I had walked about 600 yards from my house to one of the two
entrances to my neighborhood, turned left onto the sidewalk that borders a
four-lane highway, and continued to walk facing oncoming traffic.
Pt. 4
After having walked an additional 50 feet, I sensed an…
overwhelming Presence, (for lack of a better characterization).
I immediately looked behind me. It is amazing to me that at my
age, and as poor as my cataract-laden eyes are in the daytime, that my vision
seems crystal clear after the sun goes down, and I am enveloped by darkness.
There was no one behind me. At least no tangible, fleshy,
visible person who might be seen and touched. Now, I looked in the direction of
traffic. The roadway stretched to the horizon. At the moment the nearest
headlights were easily a mile away, and not a soul inhabited the sidewalk ahead
of me.
Within seconds what I have described as “The Presence”
dissipated, and my sensibilities returned to normal. It was once again as it
had been before. I continued my morning walk navigating my way along the
sidewalk, and after about ten minutes I crossed the four lanes of traffic, and
entered the neighborhood where I most often walk.
Having finished what I came to do, I re-crossed the four- lane
highway, and began walking back the way from whence I came.
And now, I found myself approaching the spot in which my
sensibilities had been so aroused. And now, He (or it) came crashing down upon
me… again! And again, I looked behind me, and again, there was absolutely
nothing there!
Pt. 5
There was just such an unseen, though almost tangible PRESENCE
which almost drove me to my knees! The sole thought, no, sensation which
enveloped me at that moment was the realization that Moses must have felt very
much this way, as he met with YAHWEH on Mt. Sinai. (And lest anyone pose the
question, I’m certainly no Moses).
However, oddly enough, even after having experienced something
I had never experienced during the course of my seventy plus years, I was
unable to decide whether the agenda of this Presence was charitable, diabolical
or neutral in nature. It was so singular, I simply had nothing to compare it
to.
I have often told my friends and relatives that,
“I have experienced more miracles in my lifetime than anyone
has a right to experience in ten lifetimes” (and) “I have no idea why God has
chosen to bless me so, and grace me with such a wide range of miraculous
occurrences.”
A son who was prayed over by a well-known evangelist, and
whose eyes uncrossed within days. This same son who at about six years of age
dreamed and described the dream which included a four-faced creature exactly
like the one which Ezekiel saw in his vision, though he had never been exposed
to that portion of scripture. An unseen hand the weight of which rested on my
shoulder for an hour. What appeared to be a young man walking towards me in the
wee hours of the morning, as I brought my bicycle to a halt at a stop sign,
only to look left, right, left and to witness empty space where I had seen the
man three seconds earlier. (It took me even less time to realize that I had
been privy to the momentary appearance of a heavenly visitor)!
And the amazing series of experiences continued.
What might well have been a fatal accident when my wife
slammed on brakes at an intersection, as a truck to our right stopped at a stop
sign, but a straight ladder on top failed to stop, and bounced across two lanes
of traffic. Had she driven out of a nearby gas station a few seconds earlier,
rather than pausing and then pausing again, the ladder would have crashed
through our passenger window and decapitated both of us! And so many other near
incidents and accidents which might well have taken one or both of us out of
this world.
Pt. 6
But to return to my account of what I have described as “The
Presence.”
I have walked the same pathway out of my neighborhood, and
onto the sidewalk which borders the four-lane highway, several mornings a week
for the past several weeks, and I have found my way back into my neighborhood
as many times as I have found my way out of it.
And almost without fail, as I reach that ethereal spot on the
sidewalk, the Presence manifests itself (or Himself, as the case may be). And
each and every time my emotions are affected in the self-same manner. I find my
gait slowing. I feel my senses activated. I see. I hear. I touch. I taste. I smell.
And though my five senses have been heightened, it is my “sixth sense” which is
so diametrically impacted.
As you might imagine, I have often thought about this
recurring series of “O Dark Thirty” experiences, and questioned whether the
agenda of the Presence was, as I have previously inferred, charitable,
diabolical or neutral in nature.
And after about two weeks of these Mt. Sinai-like visitations,
it occurred to me. I looked forward to taking this particular
pathway, and walking across the threshold of that Divine spot on the sidewalk.
And I knew. I just knew. Whomever or whatever I had routinely
encountered along this same ten or fifteen feet of sidewalk meant me good and
not harm.
Pt. 7
Of course, I have pondered the identity of the Presence, and
have mused that He might well be an angelic visitor, much like the one I
described earlier in this account. But then, I could not help but wonder
whether He might well be Jehovah God, Himself.
However, it was only today, several weeks after I initially
sensed the Presence that having told my wife about these recurring experiences
she proposed a possibility which had not occurred to me.
“You know, Pastor Shoemaker once lived in that house on the
corner, as you go out of our neighborhood” (and) “His house is only yards from
where you always sense, well, whatever it is you are sensing.”
Paul Shoemaker was a good man. He was a humble man. He was a
sincere man. He was a spiritual man. He was an impactful man. He was a loving,
giving, caring man. He was a man taken up with destiny. He was a good father
and husband. He may well have been the best man (along with my best friend and a recent pastor) that I ever knew.
Funny, when our daughter was four or five, she would often
hear Bro. Shoemaker speak about Jesus from the pulpit, so often, and so much so
that she figured this was his name. And she would sometimes greet this precious
man in the lobby of the church with, “Hello Jesus!” (And while he was not
Jesus, I think he was the next best thing). And who can say, the proximity of
his home to that sacred spot on the sidewalk may well be more than a
coincidence.
Only today I began to wonder whether for such an amazingly
“God-soaked” man if God might have chosen that little spot on the sidewalk to
be a “Joshua Chapter 4” type memorial to a life well-lived. For in this passage
of scripture we find God’s admonition to the children of Israel to take up
stones from the dry river bottom when He miraculously stopped the flow for the
people to walk across. From that time forth when their grandchildren asked what
the stones were for, they were told they were a remembrance to what their Lord
had done on that memorable day. As I reflected on this possibility, I could not
help but acknowledge the amazing things our Savior had done in the life of this
solitary man.
But whether God, an angelic visitor, or a sacred memorial to a
life well-lived, as I walk along that concrete sidewalk in the wee hours of the
morning, I find myself looking forward to my momentary communion with one whose
agenda for me is always good and never evil.
by William McDonald, PhD. Copyright pending
Friday, August 27, 2021
THE PINEAPPLE EXPRESS
US special operations vets carry out daring mission to save Afghan allies
With the Taliban growing more violent and adding checkpoints near Kabul's airport, an all-volunteer group of American veterans of the Afghan war launched a final daring mission on Wednesday night dubbed the "Pineapple Express" to shepherd hundreds of at-risk Afghan elite forces and their families to safety, members of the group told ABC News.
Moving after nightfall in near-pitch black darkness and extremely dangerous conditions, the group said it worked unofficially in tandem with the United States military and U.S. embassy to move people, sometimes one person at a time, or in pairs, but rarely more than a small bunch, inside the wire of the U.S. military-controlled side of Hamid Karzai International Airport.
The Pineapple Express' mission was underway Thursday when the attack occurred in Kabul. Two suicide bombers believed to have been ISIS fighters killed at least 13 U.S. service members -- 10 U.S. Marines, a Navy corpsman and an Army soldier and one to be determined -- and wounded 15 other service members, according to U.S. officials.
There were wounded among the Pineapple Express travelers from the blast, and members of the group said they were assessing whether unaccounted-for Afghans they were helping had been killed.
As of Thursday morning, the group said it had brought as many as 500 Afghan special operators, assets and enablers and their families into the airport in Kabul overnight, handing them each over to the protective custody of the U.S. military.
That number added to more than 130 others over the past 10 days who had been smuggled into the airport encircled by Taliban fighters since the capital fell to the extremists on Aug. 16 by Task Force Pineapple, an ad hoc groups of current and former U.S. special operators, aid workers, intelligence officers and others with experience in Afghanistan who banded together to save as many Afghan allies as they could.
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"Dozens of high-risk individuals, families with small children, orphans, and pregnant women, were secretly moved through the streets of Kabul throughout the night and up to just seconds before ISIS detonated a bomb into the huddled mass of Afghans seeking safety and freedom," Army Lt. Col. Scott Mann, a retired Green Beret commander who led the private rescue effort, told ABC News.
After succeeding with helping dozens of Afghan commandos and interpreters get into the protective ring of the airport created by the 6,000 American troops President Joe Biden dispatched to the airfield after Kabul fell to the Taliban, the group initiated an ambitious ground operation this week aided by U.S. troops inside. The objective was to move individuals and families through the cover of darkness on the "Pineapple Express." The week-long effort and Wednesday's operation were observed by ABC News under the agreement of secrecy while the heart-pounding movements unfolded.
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The operation carried out Wednesday night was an element of "Task Force Pineapple," an informal group whose mission began as a frantic effort on Aug. 15 to get one former Afghan commando who had served with Mann into the Kabul airport as he was being hunted by the Taliban who were texting him death threats.
They knew he had worked with U.S. Special Forces and the elite SEAL Team Six for a dozen years, targeting Taliban leadership, and was, therefore, a high-value target for them, sources told ABC News.
Two months ago, this commando told ABC News he had narrowly escaped a tiny outpost in northern Afghanistan that was later overrun while awaiting his U.S. special immigrant visa to be approved.
The effort since he was saved in a harrowing effort, along with his family of six, reached a crescendo this week with dozens of covert movements coordinated virtually on Wednesday by more than 50 people in an encrypted chat room, which Mann described as a night full of dramatic scenes rivaling a "Jason Bourne" thriller unfolding every 10 minutes.
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The small groups of Afghans repeatedly encountered Taliban foot soldiers who they said beat them but never checked identity papers that might have revealed them as operators who spent two decades killing Taliban leadership. All carried U.S. visas, pending visa applications or new applications prepared by members of Task Force Pineapple, they told ABC News.
"This Herculean effort couldn't have been done without the unofficial heroes inside the airfield who defied their orders to not help beyond the airport perimeter, by wading into sewage canals and pulling in these targeted people who were flashing pineapples on their phones," Mann said.
With the uniformed U.S. military unable to venture outside the airport's perimeter to collect Americans and Afghans who've sought U.S. protection for their past joint service, they instead provided overwatch and awaited coordinated movements by an informal Pineapple Express ground team that included “conductors” led by former Green Beret Capt. Zac Lois, known as the underground railroad's “engineer.”
The Afghan operators, assets, interpreters and their families were known as “passengers” and they were being guided remotely by “shepherds," who are, in most cases their loyal former U.S. special operations forces and CIA comrades and commanders, according to chat room communications viewed by ABC News.
There was one engineer, a few conductors, as well as people who were performing intelligence-gathering duties. The intelligence was pooled in the encrypted chat group in real-time and included guiding people on maps to GPS pin drops at rally points for them to stage in the shadows and in hiding until summoned by a conductor wearing a green chem light, ABC News observed in the encrypted chat.
Once summoned, passengers would hold up their smartphones with a graphic of yellow pineapples on a pink field.
Before the deadly ISIS-K bombing on Thursday near the Abbey Gate of the airport known as HKIA, intelligence warnings were issued about possible improvised explosive device attacks by ISIS-K. Around 8 p.m. EST Wednesday, the shepherds reported in the chatroom, which was viewed by ABC News, one by one that their passenger groups maneuvering discreetly in the darkness toward rally points had suddenly gone dark and were unreachable on their cell phones.
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"We have lost comms with several of our teams," texted Jason Redman, a combat-wounded former Navy SEAL and author, who was shepherding Afghans he knew.
There was concern the Taliban had dropped the cell towers -- but another Task Force Pineapple member, a Green Beret, reported that he learned the U.S. military had employed cell phone jammers to counter the IED threat at Abbey gate. Within an hour, most had reestablished communications with the "passengers" and the slow, deliberate movements of each group resumed under the ticking clock of sunrise in Kabul, ABC News observed in the encrypted chat.
"The whole night was a roller-coaster ride. People were so terrified in that chaotic environment. These people were so exhausted, I kept trying to put myself in their shoes," Redman said.
Looking back at an effort that saved at least, by their count, 630 Afghan lives, Redman expressed deep frustration "that our own government didn't do this. We did what we should do, as Americans."
Many of the Afghans arrived near Abbey Gate and waded through a sewage-choked canal toward a U.S. soldier wearing red sunglasses to identify himself. They waved their phones with the pineapples and were scooped up and brought inside the wire to safety. Others were brought in by an Army Ranger wearing a modified American flag patch with the Ranger Regiment emblem, sources told ABC News.
Lois said the Task Force Pineapple was able to accomplish a truly historic event, by evacuating hundreds of personnel over the last week.
"That is an astounding number for an organization that was only assembled days before the start of operations and most of its members had never met each other in person," Lois told ABC News.
Lois said he modeled his slow and steady system of maneuvering the Afghan families in the darkness after Harriet Tubman’s Underground Railroad for American slave escapees.
The Afghan passengers represented the span of the two-decade war there, and participants included Army Maj. Jim Gant, a retired Green Beret known as "Lawrence of Afghanistan," who was the subject of a 2014 "Nightline" investigation.
"I have been involved in some of the most incredible missions and operations that a special forces guy could be a part of, and I have never been a part of anything more incredible than this," Gant told ABC News. "The bravery and courage and commitment of my brothers and sisters in the Pineapple community was greater than the U.S. commitment on the battlefield."
"I just want to get my people out," he added.
Dan O'Shea, a retired SEAL commander, said he successfully helped his own group, which included a U.S. citizen who served as an operative and his Afghan father and brother in a nail-biting crucible as they walked on foot to one entry point after another for hours. They dodged Taliban checkpoints and patrols in order to get inside the U.S. side of the airport and on a plane out of Kabul.
"He was not willing to let his father and his brother behind; even it meant he would die. He refused to leave his family," O'Shea, a former counterinsurgency adviser in Afghanistan, told ABC News. "Leaving a man behind is not in our SEAL ethos. Many Afghans have a stronger vision of our democratic values than many Americans do."
It all began with trying to save one Afghan Commando, whose special immigrant visa was never finalized.
During an intense night last week involving coordination between Mann and another Green Beret, an intelligence officer, former aid workers and a staffer for Florida Republican and Green Beret officer Rep. Mike Waltz, the ad hoc team enlisted the aid of a sleepless U.S. Embassy officer inside the airport. He helped Marines at a gate to identify the former Afghan commando, who was caught in the throngs of civilians outside the airport and who said he saw two civilians knocked to the ground and killed.
"Two people died next to me -- 1 foot away," he told ABC News from outside the airport that night, as he tried for hours to reach an entry control point manned by U.S. Marines a short distance away.
With Taliban fighters mixing into the crowd of thousands and firing their AK-47s above the masses, the former elite commando was finally pulled into the U.S. security perimeter, where he shouted the password "Pineapple!" to American troops at the checkpoint. The password has since changed, the sources said.
Two days later, the group of his American friends and comrades also helped get his family inside the airport to join him with the aid of the same U.S. embassy officer.
Mann said the group of friends decided to keep going by saving his family and hundreds more of his elite forces comrades on the run from the Taliban.
Former deputy assistant secretary of defense and ABC News analyst Mick Mulroy is part of both Task Force Pineapple and Task Force Dunkirk, who are assisting former Afghan comrades.
"They never wavered. I and many of my friends are here today because of their bravery in battle. We owe them all effort to get them out and honor our word," Mulroy said.
Thursday, August 26, 2021
THE SERVED AND THEY WHO SERVE
THE SERVED AND THEM WHO SERVE
I recently viewed an excellent,
‘star-studded’ movie, “The Butler.” It was loosely based on the life of a
long-time White House butler by the name of Eugene Allen; a black man who
served in that position for 34 years.
In the movie the somewhat composite
character, “Cecil Gaines,” serves throughout the course of eight presidential
administrations; beginning with Truman and ending with Reagan.
And we, as it were, stand in the
shadows and watch as Cecil hands out cookies to visiting children, dusts the
bookshelves in the Oval Office, shines the shoes of various members of the
First Family, and serves at state dinners.
Perhaps it goes without saying, but
Eugene, (aka Cecil) began his White House career during the height of the Civil
Rights Movement, and as the scenes and dialogue of the movie play out, there
are a myriad of allusions to the racial tension and innuendo of that time
period. In one poignant scene our butler makes President Reagan aware of a 40
percent pay differential which then existed between the wages of the white and
black staff. And, (at least as the movie portrays it) their conversation
represents the catalyst by which African-American employees of the White House
began to receive more equitable pay.
Ultimately, Cecil makes this same
president aware of his plans to retire which leads Nancy R., (aka Jane Fonda)
to, in short order, locate his whereabouts, and ask a leading question.
“Cecil, you will be at the state
dinner for Chancellor Kohl of Germany, will you not?”
To which her humble servant responds,
“Well, yes, Mrs. Reagan. I serve at
all the state dinners.”
The conversation continues.
“No, Cecil. I’m not talking about
serving. I’m talking about being served. President Reagan and I would like you
and your wife to be our guests that night.”
The butler could hardly believe his
ears.
“Me? My wife? Mrs. Reagan, I don’t
know what to say!”
Nancy smiled.
“Just say, ‘yes’ and make plans to
join us, Cecil. God knows, you deserve it. And buy your wife a fancy dress. I
guarantee this will be ‘the highlight of your twilight,’ my dear man.”
As the movie nears its conclusion,
Cecil, (portrayed by Forest Whitaker) and “Gloria,” his wife, (portrayed by
Oprah Winfrey) find themselves seated opposite the Reagan’s, and the Kohl’s at
a long table decorated with the finest dinnerware; and attended by black
waiters in tuxedo’s.
I hasten to add that while the movie,
“The Butler” was guilty of numerous errors, and fabrications, the inclusion of
the real life, Eugene Allen and his wife, Helene at Chancellor Kohl’s state
dinner was not one of them. For you see, this particular scene is based upon
fact.
As we linger off camera, we behold the
extravagance of the entire affair. A multiplicity of guests of rank and honor.
A comparatively smaller number of the most proficient of White House
butlers.
The servers and them who are served.
One of Cecil’s understudies, (and his
close friend) bends to whisper in his ear,
“More champagne, Mr. Gaines?”
To which the chief butler responds,
“Shut up, with that ‘Mr. Gaines’
stuff.”
And as our humble hero ponders the solemnity
of the occasion, and considers those with whom he has (momentarily) been
blessed to “rub shoulders,” he reflects,
“It was different sitting
at the table instead of serving it.
…Real different.
I could see the two faces
the butlers wore to survive.
And I knew I'd lived my life
with those same two faces.
Gloria looked so happy,
but I didn't feel the same way.
I guess I wished we were there
for real …instead of for show.”
Two faces
Speaking of ‘two faces…’
The served and them who serve.
In a previous story I alluded to
having administered a DNA test to my mother, only one week before she left us;
the results which have only just now been made available to me.
As I scrolled through the results of
the test, my eyes fixed on one minute bit of information.
While
the large majority, 98.2 percent, of my mother’s ancestors, hailed from Great
Britain and Western Europe, 1.8 percent originated …in Sub-Saharan Africa, and
more specifically, Western Africa; from whence multiplied millions of hapless
and helpless men and women, boys and girls began their unwilling journey to the
Americas, and the forced labor, oppression and humiliation which awaited them
there. (Interestingly enough, the State of Mississippi still observed 'The One
Drop Rule' into the 70’s; in which anyone who had the slightest trace of African-American
heritage was classified as such. And even more interesting, at least in terms
of an implication of how I might have been classified, is that while I was
involved in my military training, I lived and served for a short time in
Mississippi).
Two faces
Eugene Allen, the real life character
upon which “The Butler” was based, found himself, during his lifetime, among
them who served. It was only after he was, unexpectedly, provided the
opportunity to “sit with royalty” that he was afforded the privilege of being
served; (which, subsequently, cast his servers in a light to which he had never
before been privy).
Two faces
I, on the other hand, have lived out
my entire lifetime as a member of a racial group who, perhaps, think of
themselves as they who “sit at the table.” Granted, as an adolescent I
witnessed the cessation of “separate, but equal,” public schools, segregated
transportation, and white and black water fountains, restrooms and restaurants.
My siblings and I grew up as members
of what might have, at that time, be characterized as the upper middle class.
At least we had a maid, a beloved old, (or so it seemed to me at the time)
black woman named, Etta Ponder.
I have, admittedly, “sat at the
table.”
The served, and them who serve.
My friends, I can tell you that the
realization that one of my distant grandfathers or grandmothers was
African-American, and endured the rigors and humiliation of a voyage across the
Atlantic Ocean, and delivered into the bonds of slavery has cast a new light on
the privileged position I have thus far enjoyed.
And as a result, I have experienced
something rather akin to the unique circumstance of which our humble server was
afforded; as he sat among ranks of the served.
However, I think the diametrical
opposite played itself out here.
For you see, I, if only in my
imagination, and for the briefest of moments, found myself among the ranks of
them who serve.
Tuesday, August 24, 2021
THE LONELY LITTLE DOLL IN THE CORNER OF THE ROOM
“The Lonely Little Doll in the Corner of the Room.” When the title of this particular piece occurred to me, it just seemed so “there there,” and, at the same time, so inestimably sad.
My mother
was a collector of dolls, carnival glass, and model cars, and every room of her
house was lined with the stuff. Whereas, my father was an extraordinary
landscape artist, and every wall was replete with his characterizations of
mountains, streams, prairies and swamps.
Several
years before my father’s passing, and the subsequent passing of my mother, we
arrived at the joint conclusion that we would do something we’d never done ‘til
then; (nor did we have the opportunity to repeat it). We undertook a road trip
to South Carolina on a mission to locate the general area in which his
immigrant great Grandfather lived during the time in which he fought in the
American Revolution. (That is a story unto itself, and I neither have time nor
space to elaborate upon it now).
However,
having completed our quest, and enjoyed one another’s fellowship, we “set sail”
for home. And somewhere between the Palmetto State and the Sunshine State, we
pulled into the parking lot of a Cracker Barrel Restaurant. Of course, for any
of you who have ever frequented this fine establishment, you are all too aware
of the thousand square feet of display space which greets their patrons as they
walk through its portals. And as we strode our hungry selves into the place, I
made a mental note to do the ‘grand tour’ after my father and I had done our
best against the onslaught of trout and mashed potatoes.
I have long
since forgotten whether it was my suggestion, (or whether my dad came up with
the idea). I expect, however, that the doll was my suggestion, and not just any
doll, but the best that Cracker Barrel had to offer.
Pt. 2
My dad and I
had no sooner stepped up to the display shelves that we made a unanimous
decision to select the tallest and prettiest figurine of the bunch. She was about
2 feet in height and wore a floor length yellow layered gown; not unlike those
paintings of plantation Belles. Her exquisite costume was topped off by a hat
of the same cloth and color. While the price was a bit steep, about $50, my
father never hesitated, and having retrieved it from the shelf, he quickly made
his way to the cashier.
No doubt, my
mother loved the doll, and as I recall it was one of her featured little
‘pretties’ and, though I am most obviously a guy, one that I always liked and
admired among her ceramic menagerie. After her death, her children, and
grandchildren chose from among the dolls and carnival glass and model cars, and
took with them whatever they wished.
And as you
might expect, given my history with the “Cracker Barrel Doll,” I retrieved it
from its place of honor, along with several others of lesser size and beauty.
With the passing of months, I bequeathed some of the dolls to several women
with whom my mother was especially close, as well as a couple of my daughters.
And ultimately, I was left with two. That one which I have previously
described, and a somewhat smaller one which was clothed in a similar dress and
hat.
And for the
space of two years the dolls stood, side by side, on a table in the corner of
my wife’s bedroom; awaiting their ultimate separation from one another. For you
see, I had pledged the smaller of the two to my oldest daughter, and it was
only with the passage of time that I was able to fulfill my promise.
Pt. 3
I have
watched one particular segment of “The Twilight Zone,” entitled, “After Hours,”
starring Anne Francis, numerous times. Throughout the course of this segment,
we are introduced to a large, multi-storied department store, and a host of
mannequins which ‘inhabit’ the premises. I use the word, ‘inhabit’ since in
this almost believable ‘yarn,’ the plastic occupants of the building come to
life, after all the ‘real’ ones head home at the close of business. And,
interestingly enough (at least to me), each and every one of the mannequins are
granted one week per year to leave the confines of the department store, and
live among the several billion members of mankind who frequent this planet.
I admit it. More than once, as I have walked
past that bedroom’s open door, and glanced at the two similarly dressed and
quite life-like dolls, I have recalled that “After Hours” segment of “Twilight
Zone.” And to be sure, I have imagined that, like their full-scale replicas,
these 21st century miniatures possessed some of the same attributes,
as their fancified 20th century television ancestors.
At this writing, it has been two months since
I delivered the smaller of the ceramic dolls to my daughter. And these days, as
I walk past my wife’s bedroom, and glance into that little corner of the room,
and study the familiar features of the “Cracker Barrel Belle,” it seems to me,
she seems so all alone; (as if she realizes her little friend has taken a trip
from whence she will never return).
As a
counselor, I have intervened in the lives of thousands of men, women, boys and
girls, and have been exposed to a multitude of aberrant personalities and the
stories which accompanied them. And thus, you might imagine I am reticent to
confide the following, for fear you might too easily assign some of those same
symptoms to yours truly.
However,
they say “Confession is good for the soul.” And given this premise, I will “put
myself out,” and share the following experience with you.
Yesterday,
as I walked past the open door and glanced into that same room to which I have
previously alluded, I paused a moment, and directing my gaze and subsequent
words towards the little Southern Belle on the corner table offered her the
kind of encouragement I might just as easily offered a client, (or member of my
family).
“You needn’t
be lonely. We’re right here with you.”
(Please
don’t dial “911” or call “the men in white,” but I may have to find another
of her kind to substitute for her friend who has forever departed the
premises).
by William McDonald, PhD